Good Evening, God
Much to my surprise I discovered recently that I have a Wife App. I noticed it because it seems to be ON more during this lockdown. In fact, I noticed that when my wonderful husband is asleep I have more energy.
Aha! I must be running it in the background all the while he is awake. It is sort of like being “On Call” and indeed, he does call. Now one might wonder how it was that it is only now — as we begin our 62st year of marriage — that I noticed.
Well, I am an extrovert. Mostly, I am busy noticing the outer world. My own dear inner self is still basically uncharted territory.
So it was just last week that I noticed I have another app — the graphic designer app. I was taking one of my husband’s blogs and reformatting it to a paper copy. I LOVE working with graphics!
But, it seems, that my loving easy-going Wife App cannot run at the same time as my Designer App. My designer app is all business — single focused! And, apparently, unaware of kindness or even civility. Ok . . . rude!
And I realized that I am starting to extend my Designer App to select areas of our home. Once again, when that app is running it is best if Kit is napping or asleep for the night. This Designer App is very tightly focused and particular. It is in fact, as close to being a perfectionist as I ever get. Fussy FUSSY!
I’m ever so grateful to have discovered these apps, God. Because, apps have Settings! I can make adjustments! I haven’t figured out just HOW to do that yet. Still, I have hope! And I have a better understanding for what’s going on inside me . . . as I interact with my loving — and thankfully patient –husband.
Please help me, God, as I seek out the many other inner apps I’m running.