Humus, Humility and Earthworms

Good Day, God!

A quote from Carl Jung: “In my case Pilgrim’s Progress consisted in my having to climb down a thousand ladders until I could reach out my hand to the little clod of earth that I am.”

I love that quote. To me that is humility. But, to me, it is a joyful understanding of humility. We are! We are loved! And we are called to let love flow through us. Humility doesn’t mean we are worms!

Although, as I learn about earthworms I wish that I could be as useful! They are major contributors to the health of the soil. (Hmm. Just as loving and compassionate people contribute to the health of a community.) Basically, earthworms dramatically improve soil structure, water movement, nutrient dynamics and plant growth.

Oh! And I recently learned that excess nitrogen — as in industrial fertilizers — harms earthworms. It seems that large, monoculture industrial farming is not at all good for earthworms. And, perhaps, God, working in large corporate bureaucracies is not good for people, either?

Funny, I hadn’t started out to compare us to earthworms . . . but I am enjoying the idea! As with Jung’s quote above — seeing ourselves as a little clod of earth — feels like seeing ourselves as part of Your Great Web of Life. So different from the hubris of seeing ourselves as designers and improvers of life.

Sigh. Thank goodness that humility does not require us to be powerless — but rather to depend upon and call upon Your Power of Love.

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Compassion for My Human Condition

Pig Pen by Charles Schultz

Good Evening God,

Having my false self stripped away . . . layer by layer . . . has given me a semi joyful acceptance of my True Self. I am thankful to be me — but I am aware that I make “mistakes” or “fall short” the way Pig Pen attracts dirt.

I am rueful. But, accepting. That doesn’t mean that I don’t get up, clean up and try to pick up the mess around me. I do. It just means that it is all there the next day. But, there is an immense freedom and peace in accepting myself as I am. Human. . . as in humus . . . as in the dirt of the earth from which we came.

And, as I engage in Centering Prayer I try to be open to Your Indwelling Spirit . . . open to its action within me. Perhaps that has helped with my mostly good-humored acceptance of myself? It seems to me that I was expending quite a bit of energy in keeping from even seeing my short-comings.

Although, most of that kind of energy goes to keeping me from seeing, accepting and working with my Shadow Parts. Shadows: those aspects of myself that I despise in others. Indeed, that is such a great way of locating our Shadows! Just see what truly upsets you in others!

As I do that I try to extend compassion to myself and then to others.

Compassion, and understanding seem to help with all sorts of trials and traumas. And as Pema Chondron has observed we are always in motion. Part of the grand flow of life. Your Grand River of Life that carries us all along.

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The Usefulness of Prayer

Good Day, God

I have taken some small steps toward taking You more seriously. (I suspect You are laughing.) It began with doing Centering Prayer twice a day. Then about a month ago it came to me that I should actually pray for those who despitefully use (if not me then) the Country and the Planet.

That seemed harmless enough until part II arrived — I was to pray on my knees for 10 whole minutes. YIKES! Now, I’m laughing! But, I have done it fairly faithfully.

The first result? I stopped being so angry and self-righteous. I realized that I share many characteristics of the person I started praying for. And my prayers quickly shifted from “change his mind” to please heal US.

The second result? I realized it was a terrible waste of emotional time and energy to focus hate, anger and judgment on OTHERS. And not just a waste. It was somehow toxic for me.

The third result? I began to see behind the distractions. I watched a video of Vandana Shiva and immediately ordered her book, Who REALLY Feeds the World? And I actually AM reading it. (One chapter a day is all I can take. But with out the ongoing prayer I couldn’t even do that!)

What have I learned? Again . . . more tomorrow.

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The need for new perspectives

An image of an electron cloud

Good Morning, God,

It feels as if the last few months have brought one new perspective after another. And I have learned that understanding isn’t so much about facts as how those facts are organized and connected. Indeed, what I call mental maps might just be another name for perspectives.

This morning as I finished Father Mark Thibodeaux’s Thirty Day Ignatian Retreat on Ascending with Jesus. He talked about how Ignatius invites us to let go of our old understanding of Jesus and welcome a new BIGGER understanding of Jesus!

I loved that idea! What with our new understandings of Quantum Physics it seems that Science is now far more “woo woo” that the Church has ever dared to be. I’m excited to DARE!

I’ll talk to You tomorrow, God, about how I’m daring and what has been happening .

Posted in a matter of scale, a new view of Commons, Abundant Life, accepting my ability to REDESIGN, accepting my need for help, adjusting, mental maps, Perspective, perspectives

Small Delights amidst major upheavals

The top of a live pineapple plant — for sale in Foodland

Good Day, God!

My mental maps have been buffeted over the last few months and then yesterday we got the video from our senior pastor that he was resigning due to burn out. Sigh. . .

But, talking . . . being heard . . . helps! I just finished a conversation with a good friend about our pastor’s resignation. Afterwards, I felt more balanced — more centered. And I had the idea that we all need opportunities to talk and regroup. I was sent a great quote this morning: “A good listener is one who helps us overhear ourselves.” (Poet Yahia Lababidi)

So, God, we talk. We listen. We pray. All good . . . all helpful.

But we can also REFOCUS. This photo, taken while we were picking up food in a market yesterday, moved me OUT of my upheavals and into awe. BEAUTY does that. Especially unexpected beauty.

A dear friend is virtually touring our world’s museums. What a great way to “take care” of herself. And as I go out on walks with my wonderful husband, Kit, I look for the flowers, the mountains and the fig tree. Beauty does feed our souls. Thank You.

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Who REALLY feeds the World?

Good Day, God

Only after just reading the introduction to this book, Who REALLY Feeds the World, I have had my eyes opened. But, before I go on, let me say that 70% of the food produced is still produced by small agriculture — often worked by women.

Yes, I knew Roundup was really bad for human health. In fact, the rise in its use mirrors the rise in autism. And I knew that plants were being modified (GMO) so they could withstand Roundup and other pesticides and non-organic fertilizers. I even knew that the chemical fertilizers were produced by the munitions factors at the end of WWII. And I knew there was a wave of suicides amongst the India farmers due to buying hybrid seeds that cannot be saved to reproduce. Thus they have to keep on buying.

What I didn’t know was that when India had to import grain due to a drought — in 1965 — the U.S. government and the World Bank made sure that food grains would only be sent to India by American if India also imported American seeds and chemicals. This was touted as the Green Revolution.

What happened? Well, chemical fertilizers do not feed and nourish soil, nor can they help the soil hold water. So, with the advent of the monoculture of the Green Revolution diversity plummeted. No longer do the farmers in the Punjab grow 41 varieties of wheat, 37 varieties of rice and so forth.

Now the Punjab has desertified soils, depleted aquifers, indebted farmers, and many victims of pesticide-related cancer.

And now these corporations are determined to spread their industrial “food” production into the rest of the world. This is the vision of the One Percent. The One Percent that own 51% of the worlds wealth. The One Percent that donates so charitably to Universities, Research Institutions, politicians, and owns the major media outlets of the world.

I tell You, God, we NEED Your help. We need to pray for the One Percent. To bless them with enhanced understanding. Because, understanding is the very first step toward change and a healthier world.

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More on Joy and Generosity

A quote from The Book of Joy

Good Evening, God

As I was reading The Book of Joy: Lasting Happiness in a Changing World, I kept copying quotes and sending them to myself. So many ideas to ponder. This idea was from the compiler of the book, Douglas Carlton Abrams. He inserted the scientific data — of which there was a lot.

So, it seems, God, that You truly did design us to be generous. I think that our culture has worked hard to make us afraid to be generous. After all, if one is afraid of ending up homeless . . . or a bag lady . . . one has a hard time being generous. But, that might be a fear felt mostly by those who have a stuff to loose. Studies show the poor are proportionately more generous than the rich.

No matter! We are each responsible for our own self. I am responsible for battling my culture as well as the desires of my eyes and heart.

I really just wanted to share this amazing fact. That one of four brain circuits is devoted to generosity! Sigh, You have given us a true gift. Please help me use it!

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