I had no idea how much energy I was using to avoid and deny my fears. That is, I was unaware until I started the turn toward confronting them. I sound brave, but, really all I did was stop playing solitaire and scrabble and reading fun fiction books. Those were all what I used to block reality — putting my head in the sand.
Then when worries came . . . I trusted You enough to look at them and pray about them! It was clear that You were not going to wave a magic wand! But, at the same time it was also clear that You WANT to HELP! I guess, You just want me to “participate” in my reality.
I think I started this Distraction Fast last week. On Friday it was suddenly imperative that I get an Earthing Mat that very day and put it on our bed. My wonderful husband Kit handled it with continued sound sleep. I was a bit more reactive. Being more energized to the point of being wired the first night . . . then adjusting my sleep. And now I’m having intermittent waves of much more energy with periods of recovery. Interesting!
Another result is much more PEACE about situations. I feel confident that our daughters are doing WELL and I do not need to “help” or “worry”. My goodness! That is amazing.
It seems as if the “channel” that FEAR comes in on . . . is the same “channel” that FAITH comes in on. And now that I am standing with You (so to speak) and looking at my fears . . . faith is flooding in. Hm. You command us to FEAR NOT 360 times in the Bible. But, I didn’t get the part about facing them with You.
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