Good Evening, God!
I’m tired. After a great night’s sleep on Thanksgiving I was up and down most of last night. And I am feeling a bit bleak. So this photo fits my mood perfectly. The view is of the beautiful blue ocean . . . but it is seen through the shadows of a Lauhala tree. Sigh. This tree was planted as a memorial for a friend’s son. Somehow, God, my normal UP mood is down.
It feels like the wonderful rest I’ve had is giving my Body and Heart a chance to “Clean Up” and “Clean Out”. Bringing up worries and fears for the future — up to the surface so they can be brought to You. This feels like a good thing. It’s kind of like cleaning out cabinets and closets.
Acknowledging this is hard for me. I’m an enneagram Seven. I’d rather turn away and make a joke. But that is not showing backbone! I need backbone. And that means consistently working on developing discipline . . . so now I will go do my stretches and lift my 5 pound weights. And keep track on my iWatch.
I’m back. I am puffing a little but I’m already feeling less bleak . . .