Good Evening, God,
For the last week or so I have been thinking about what Parts or Aspects of me are not working as well as I would like. Right at the TOP of the list was my “Starter” Part. I “blamed” her for my not getting started on DOING a lot of small things I WANT to do.
This morningI asked my spiritual director, June, about it. She suggested that I try to see what she looked like. For a second or two there was only a dim dark shape — THEN DARTH VADER appeared.
Really, God. I was NOT prepared to visualize my Starter Part as Darth Vader!
But, June reminded me that when Darth was young he was a “Good Guy” — a Jedi Knight. Am I AFRAID of the Starter Part of myself? Afraid I might launch something that might do more harm than good? Afraid that I — like all the other humans on this planet –am capable of doing evil in the name of good?
Duh, of course, I am! We humans are easily misled. Still, should that concern keep me from STARTING on small helpful projects? I can almost hear You say — There IS the gift of DISCERNMENT! Yes! That’s right!
And, now that I THINK about it, I realize my Starter Part is not likely to run amok. She WANTS to do GOOD and good work. She will be so much happier if I USE her. . . judiciously.
Hmm.. Judicious. I’ve been traveling for the first half of this year . . . then recovering from a bad cold. Then traveling again and then recovering from a UTI (bladder infection). Starting projects when I need to REST and RECHARGE is foolish. So maybe my “Starter” problem is part Darth Vader and part Common Sense.
Once again, God, LIFE is all about BALANCE!