Good Morning, God!
I first remember learning that SIZE doesn’t matter in Madeleine L’Engle’s book, A Wind in the Door. This photo is of a rather small bloom on a dwarf poinciana tree. But, just look at its beauty! If we look carefully enough . . . if we see as we are seen by You . . . perhaps everything has beauty.
Every one of us matters . . . every one of us is beloved by You. That does not mean we are yet in full alignment — whatever that might mean. I take it to mean that You love us As we are and Where we are.
So, God, 2016 has been declared by Pope Francis to be the Year of Mercy. I have declared it to be The Year I Learn to Take Better Care of Myself. I kind of squirm when I write that, God. In my Culture — I am to take care of OTHERS. I am definitely NOT to be self-centered, selfish or self-indulgent.
Only, I have recently realized that I am in need of care. . . in need of help . . . in need of changing my priorities so that my family and I are central (I couldn’t quite write, FIRST.) The last time we talked, God, I wondered “what will I do Today?”
Now I am reporting back. What I did that day was I ACTED to put myself first. And I found that when I did that I actually put my wonderful husband, Kit, first! I had “forgotten” that I had made him part of me and therefore able to be “shelved” while I honored my “commitments” to Others. Now that I have been able to resist duty to others — even just a little bit — I am able to lavish attention on the two of us.
This is a BIG surprise. A Very Happy Surprise. It feels revolutionary!