Good Day, God!
I’m REJOICING! I’m so thankful to have finished my four part series on FORGIVING. I am praying that the folks that heard me speak — remember what YOU want them to remember and forget whatever You want them to forget.
It is scary to speak up and speak out — saying what I felt that You wanted me to share. But, it is exhilarating too. Thank You!
And thank You, too, for the small bits of understanding that have lodged in my heart as I prepared.
Years ago Kit and I discovered that our eyes are quite different in how much light we need. Once Kit understood — he laughed and called me a Beautiful Moth. That allowed me to laugh too and call him my Beloved Bat. Physiological differences are easier to accept than matters of “morality”. Before our physiological awareness I was being judged as “a person who wasted electricity”. Being judged in not fun. Being physiologically different is fine.
And now that I understand about how my sympathetic operating system is designed for ACTIVE and ALERT and ON THE JOB, I am more compassionate with myself when I find it hard to be kind and gentle at the same time that I am FOCUSED! My other operating system — the parasympathetic system is designed for healing, digesting and cleaning up — my body and my heart. She loves being kind, gentle, loving and forgiving.
Of course, she is mostly on while I sleep. She isn’t ON much of the day. But, I can change that! I can do centering prayer. I can slow down my breathing. I can stretch. I can remove one (OK, maybe two or three) of my projects from My Day’s To Do List.
Having a Physiological Explanation helps reduce my guilt and shame. And, that is calming and healing, too.