Good Morning, God!
The last day of 2014 and I am looking forward to a New Year! Not that I haven’t learned from the — soon to be — old year. I have. It is just that mostly I learned how much more growing I have yet to do.
Yes, God, that is a big step forward! I know that. I am just much slower at feeling good about it.
After all, I have years of conditioning to value successes and to be judgmental of failures. So, I am still working at turning that value system right side up — and valuing my mistakes.
Aurgh! You really want me to confess my biggest mistake? Sigh. I think my biggest mistake has been to avoid even thinking about my problems (unwanted responsibilities and unpleasant stuff) and numbing out on historical novels and solitaire games. Escaping, as it were, from this amazing life You have given me.
Talk about a really big mistake! So, what has changed? Well, I have a lot more HOPE now. I have hope in looking back over last year and seeing just how much things have improved. I also have more hope because our oldest daughter has recommended specific supplements that have helped us both physiologically. And both of our daughters are there for us . . . as we try to be there for them.
Gosh, God, a loving family is a really BIG reason to hope! Family and friends are a big help in getting me to face forward into the New Year and into much more personal responsibility.
One more “help” for the New Year is the reframe I’m doing on Personal Responsibility. I used to sort of see it as a burden. But, it is becoming clear to me that Personal Responsibility is the KEY to Freedom! The Key to a better life . . . to fuller use of the Life You have given me. Thank You, God, for 2014 AND for a New Year!