Mommies and Babies — and Saying Goodbye

Mommy Monk Seal and Baby

Mommy Monk Seal and Baby on the Ka’iwi shore

Good Evening, God!

I identify with this Baby Monk Seal, God. She is crying for her mommy to wake up. The mother, Irma, will stay with her for six weeks . . . feeding her and teaching her to swim and fish. Then the mother will have to leave. She will not have eaten for six weeks. Leaving is part of Your Plan, God.

Is there EVER a good time for a Mother to go? I think not, God. My mother is 98 1/2, in hospice care, and I am suffering. It’s true that I still have Mom for a brief time more, visiting when I can. Today she blew kisses at me as I left. That felt good.

I don’t go to see her more than once or twice a day. Part of me was wishing that we had hospice at home so I could see her more often. But, a dear friend, who did that for her mother, said — Oh NO! — that I made the right decision! Actually, it was the only decision that looked doable.

I have been taken by surprise at the grief flowing through me. It’s very primal, God. I guess grief always is. But because my husband Kit and I had been “assisting” mom daily the last few years, playing games and talking — part of me sees her as my baby. So it’s a sort of double whammy. The strength of these Grief Currents is amazing. Walking this path with my mom feels almost perilous — as if I too might be swept into the River Styx.

Still, I am thankful for the power of this mother/daughter connection. Thankful for a Mommy I hate to let go. And what our daughter Suzy said is true: “Mom, as Deaths go, this sounds about as good as it gets!”

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4 comments on “Mommies and Babies — and Saying Goodbye
  1. Sandy B. says:

    This is absolutely beautiful, Mom. So touching…. Mom, I love you soooooo much!!!!

    • HI Snookerbug

      I’m SO THANKFUL you are a mommy and KNOW how it all feels . . . although come to think of it . . .you know because you are a daughter.

      As I said, I get confused!

      LOVE!!!!

      MOM

      AND I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!!!

  2. adriana digioia says:

    Never forget what a good daughter and mother you are.

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