Good Evening, God!
I am tired of living with The War on . . . Practically Everything! War on Cancer, War on Drugs, War on Terrorism . . . You name it, God, and we are at war with it.
It is such a foolish model, God! I think that gardening — growing good stuff for ourselves and others, feeding the Body and the Soul — is a much better model than War. Why focus efforts on harming enemies instead of growing friends?
Ah, but I am learning that the reason that people don’t Do Things is that They Don’t Know How! So, we need help in learning how to grow and reach out to others. Peer Support and things like the Twelve Step Programs seems to me to make remarkably good sense.
People who have had a problem/trauma and lived through it are able to help others in similar situations. I suppose that is like self-seeding perennials — plants passing seeds on and on and on.
Still, having “gardeners” really does help. These are the folks who “train” the peer support folks . . . the rules and sponsors of the 12 Step Programs and so forth.
Actually, I would love it if Everyone had a “helper” of some kind or other — Personal Trainers, Life Coaches, or for me, God, a Spiritual Director.
It’s a joy to realize that we humans are never too old to learn and grow — to share, confess, and make amends. Of course, that means that first one has to take a fearless moral inventory. Yikes!
As it happens, I am embarking on a fearful moral inventory. This is not easy and it gets tangled and confused because it seems that as a Mother I am Responsible for Everything. I know this is not literally true. But, it feels true! And I am learning to Go with my Gut! The Gut is where changes grow — as in the earthy, “dirty” soil. Both are filled with microbes, worms and bugs — with an occasional Toad.
Thank You, God, for helping me look back — and helping me look forward!