Good Evening, God!
My Professional Organizer came again today and we spent a little over four hours purging, shifting, cleaning and, finally, beautifying my second office. Actually, it never became an office — it was too hard to work in.
Now I know why! There was simply TOO much in it! I had to expend energy in order not to notice all the stuff. Having the stuff removed gave some of that energy back to me.
Not only that, but Iʻm now using that energy to see stuff — to see what needs to be processed next. I am hoping, God, that this will become what is called a Virtuous Cycle. Removing clutter releases energy. That energy can then be used to see other corners of clutter. Dealing with that clutter will release still more energy.
Having my Organizer with me is like having an extra brain and extra energy. I was telling my mom about my four-hour-adventure and she said to me, “But canʻt you do this?” Well, theoretically, yes. But, in reality, I totally need the help. I am not ready to solo yet!
I guess, God, that this is One of the Ten areas in which You told me to get outside help. You told me that years ago. I’m slow. Hmm. Iʻm not so much slow as non-responsive — yes, that could be called disobedient. Or maybe it is also called not taking You seriously? Like, maybe part of me just doesn’t believe You care enough about me to give me directions?
Sigh. Yes, God, it is probably all of the above. It is undoubtedly all of the above! Yikes! I’ve been ignoring Your Help — while I keep on asking for it. Please help me dig in and CHANGE!
Gosh, God, maybe following Your Specific Commands could become another Virtuous Cycle?