Good Evening, God!
Our daughter Suzanne told me recently that each year she comes up with a Word for The Year. She hasn’t discovered her word for 2013 yet, but I was inspired by her idea.
So, I have come up with a phrase for myself — but maybe just for January. It is: I have permission to make mistakes. It came to me as I read a quote in the morning newspaper. It was from a “handyman,” who said that each of us can do anything if we allow ourselves to make mistakes. That’s not exactly the quote. But it’s close.
Really, God, reading that simple quote made me aware of how much I hate (fear) to mess up. I guess that must be the part of me that loved to do well in school. And doing well in school meant — Doing it Right!
Actually, I never got straight A’s. And I didn’t realize just how big an imprint “school” had left on me. But, this morning, once I officially gave myself permission to make mistakes — to do it wrong the first several times — I felt ever so much better. In fact, I went to my computer and — after struggling — was able to insert a revised story into my website.
Of course, God, I haven’t got my website back up yet! That’s going to involve a whole bunch more Missteps and Mistakes. I can feel them looming.
Still, God, I feel as if I have crossed some sort of invisible hump. I sure hope so because I really do want to get back to sharing my stories. In fact, I want to get back to creating stories! Creating and sharing are both joys!