Being Heard into Speaking

Posted on June 27, 2012 by a moment with god — Leave a comment

flowers seen on a neighborhood walk

Good Day, God!

Thank You for a relaxing day — what a surprise and delight! I was quite sure yesterday that I had stuffed too many things into today. Still, being me, I couldn’t bear to drop anything.

But, all day there has been more than enough time — Time Between — Time as a Support.

I have never ever thought of TIME as supporting me. Now that the idea has entered my mind it seems so obvious.

Racing against the clock isn’t from You! We created the clock and made it a god over us. I was trying to figure out just why today had more than enough time.

I did start the morning with the Wednesday Morning Women’s Prayer group. That helps. Then too, one of my morning’s activities was going up Tantalus to see June, my Spiritual Director. That really helped. Oh my! There are so many Feelings in this one small heart, God! And what a gift it is to have a trusted friend hear me into speaking!

So many of those tangled and entangling feelings and half-formed thoughts wiggled their way out into Consciousness — into My Consciousness as I heard myself speaking. Speaking words out loud is so different from just thinking and different from writing, too. Maybe that is more true for extroverts than for introverts. I don’t know.

I just know that it takes a lot of energy not to hear myself.