First of all, THANK YOU! Thank You for the gift of children and grandchildren. Thank You for the gift of being able to be here in Tucson with my grandsons while Sandy and Dave get a vacation together. This is good! And it is good for me as well as for them.
Good in many ways — some of which are clear to me and some are not. I am dimly aware of others ways that I may never see. I love my grandsons, God.
And Love has a thousand (billion?) definitions. So, I’m attempting to speak to each family member in his or her own love language.And this has been a great joy for me.
I started my very slow and quiet morning with espresso with real cream and chunks of dark chocolate — only to realize that self-indulgence isn’t quite the same as self-love. Dang!
A dear friend is going through the last of her cancer treatments — a difficult type of self-care. And, not to complain too much, God, it does seem to me that true “self-care” has that painful “hair shirt” connotation!
It need not be so! Yes, God, I am quite sure you are right. But, do I have the smarts or inclination or time to sort it out? Hmmm! Perhaps this is ONE of the unseen “gifts” to me in being Out of my usual environment. Away from my usual full cup of “daily duties?”
I am sitting here now — free to choose — free to decide — free to sequence my time. Please, God, help me to ask You for help. Help me as I sit quietly — aware of my need for your help!