Good Morning, God!
Yesterday was my first time back in the water since I left on my first trip back in April. Three months ago? Really, God?
But, You are Right. I’ve been busy. Who knew that “Letting Go” took so much energy — and was so painful? Choosing to retire from my job as “library consultant” did feel like a loss of my identity.
I’m shaking my head now, God. Wondering just HOW I could have gotten so mixed up about who I really am. How could I have taken my Work Role as my primary identity?
Still, it makes me very sympathetic for people who retire as CEOs and Presidents. People with big jobs must find the “letting go” incredibly difficult. Jimmy Carter is the only one I can think of who entered into a More Meaningful Life.
Hmmm. More Meaningful . . . that feels “off track” God. We are all meaningful in ways large and small. And as Madeleine L’Engle pointed out in her book a Wind in the Door, size doesn’t matter. It really doesn’t. So much for being Number One — The Biggest — The Best. Foolishness! A Virus of the Heart that has infected us all.
Sigh. We are so easily deluded, Please, God, Open our eyes. Expand our Hearts. Help us to Care and Share. And, yes, God, make sure that I see myself as NEEDING care. Humble me so that I may Receive — help and advice from my family and friends! Oh, yes, You TOO!