Good Morning, God!
A lovely, quiet Sabbath Day. I will be reading scripture in a couple of hours and playing scrabble with my Mom. But, that is pretty much all I have planned.
Maybe a walk with Kit after dinner? Everything else can wait. I do still have a TOWER of PILES on the dining room table. But truth be told, God, I could just toss the whole thing.
Aaah! So THIS is Sabbath Rest. I LOVE IT!
And the interesting — or horrifying — thing is, that retiring from being Arcadia’s library consultant has been a blessing for them! More people are involved — using their gifts and talents — to do meaningful work in the library.
And I am no longer “responsible” for doing more than I have the time, energy or inclination to do. Now, WHAT took me so long? Well, to be generous to myself, God, I did ASK if others WANTED to do what I was doing. But, looking back, of course, it was ESSENTIAL for me to DECIDE to STEP OUT OF THE PICTURE. To acknowledge to myself and everyone else it was too much for me.
Hmmm. That might have been the “sticking point”, God. Acknowledging it was TOO much for me to do and do well — that was painful. Sigh. Reality and Humility do look a lot alike. But, going back to Opposable Virtues, God. I was “responsible”, “loyal” and “faithful.” I didn’t want to stop until there was a “replacement.”
It reminds me of the story of how villages in Japan “fired the loyal soldier” who was returning from wars. First they THANKED and HONORED HIM for past services. Then the village elder stood up and announced that NOW he was needed as a productive worker in the community — a firing from one role and rehiring in another role. Ah, the old ways — a transition ritual!
A BIG MAHALO !!. Reading this entry inspired me to take action on an issue I have been struggling with. “ESSENTIAL for me to DECIDE” spoke to me. I took action and feel ‘great’ about that. Every day of this ‘retired life’ is a new and grand adventure. Enjoy it “to da max!”