Good Morning, God!
I have BEGUN!
The day before yesterday — while I was sitting in Centering Prayer — I realized how FRIGHTENED I was about creating a website for Patty. I had bought the site, Mango-Days.com the day before.
And now, I was terrified of doing a bad job. Frightened of failing to do it “right.” As I sat there — I let the feelings of fear wash through me. Then I thought, “Of course I will not do it well enough! But I will do it!”
Marianne Moore’s lines ran through my heart: And whence is courage . . .that in misfortune, even death, encourages others and in its defeat, stirs the soul to be strong.
So yesterday, I began. Why, God, after years of being thankful to let Kit do everything connected with Patty, have I felt called to share?
I think it is because of “hearing” Patty’s poems sung . . . set to music. The music let me “hear” FEELINGS from deep inside Patty. It was as if Patty, herself, was finally FREE to cry out and fully express herself.
I guess, God, that I have been set free too — or, at least I am BEING set free — slowly, slowly, bit by bit. One of the things I have done — getting ready for the website — is to post a “recitation” of one of Patty’s poems by the beautiful young soprano, Rebekah Alexander. I didn’t use one of the wonderful musical numbers — which will be recorded this July in the NPR studios in Boston –because the musical numbers had a substitute clarinetist playing. . . ah well.
Thank You, God! Thank You for wanting us all to be set free to feel and to share.