Good Morning, God!
Our daughters are in their own homes now — Suz leaving on the 31st and Sandy on 1/3. And I MISS THEM! Not only do I miss them but I am more AWARE of their incredible VALUE to me. I guess I am a slow learner, God. At least it has taken a while for me to become FULLY AWARE of HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM.
What I mean is that I am now “consciously aware” of how precious they are to me, whereas before I just felt loving. It was a deep, gut-level love, to be sure — very Mother Tigerish.
This “awareness” feels different, but it feels good. Ah! Perhaps, I am becoming more nuanced emotionally? No? Well, God, at least I understand that Becoming A Nuanced Person is a GOAL!
By nuanced, God, I mean having 10 kinds of possible responses available to me in any situation, instead of 2. Why don’t we PRACTICE THAT, GOD? How useful it would be to Practice Deploying a Variety of Responses to a given situation. Gosh, God, wouldn’t it be wonderful to Role Play various kinds of interactions! And where better to do this than in the FAMILY! I wonder if they have workbooks for that?
Hmm. Workbooks remind me of school. And, as my friend Geri said “They didn’t teach me much that was USEFUL in school.” Yes, God, school and home and church COULD be teaching us: HOW to “speak the Truth in Love.” HOW to respond BEFORE we blowup. HOW DIFFERENTLY WE EXPERIENCE THE SAME THINGS.
I could go on and on, God. But, I hear you encouraging ME to DO MY PART!