Good Morning, God!
Sandy is in the air flying to Australia to meet Dave — and I am Tutu in Charge — in a house of sleeping grandsons. How fortunate I am, God, to have this gift of time with them. Yes, God, I felt Your Nudge. This is a Time of Multiple Growth Opportunities. And my failures will be used as well as my successes — and You’re right — I may not be able to tell which is which.
Yesterday I took Ian for a “treat” at the Cold Stone Creamery. Ian ordered a small cup. And, God, I heard myself say: “That looks so small, Ian. What about getting a medium?” I knew he would order toppings and I thought they would fall off the small. (I know, That is NO EXCUSE — but I wanted to be “loving.”) Such is the POWER of the SUGAR SNAKE! Later in the car I said, “YOU WERE RIGHT, IAN — small would have been better.” And he agreed.
Thank You, God, for giving me the IMAGE of the Sugar Snake! I can FEEL her coiled in my belly — wanting to be fed — and feeding my Conscious Mind all sorts of rationalizations and “reasons” WHY I DESERVE SUGAR. Somehow this slight disassociation between Me and The Sugar Snake really helps me resist feeding her.
It has been a full week now since she has been fed. Still, “she” had no trouble getting me to order a medium (huge!) ice cream for Ian — and, God, I really do NOT want to confess this — I asked them to put in a third oreo cookie. (I hope Suz is not reading this!!!!)
When I look in the mirror, I can “see” Her coiled up in my belly. Still strong — and waiting. Thank You, God, for helping me to “see” the “Sugar Snake” as part of my Powerful Reptilian Brain.
hahaha…I laughed at the admission regarding the third oreo cookie!
the image of the snake so visceral
thank you for helping complete the connection between mind and body and soul…
Sandy is the one in the air, yet you were looking over your shoulder about what Suz would think — that is a triangle of care and mother functioning that only a woman would experience!
Yes-doesn’t the snake look like our coil of intestines, mouth ready for the next swallow!!