Good Morning, God!
Sandy is in the air flying to Australia to meet Dave — and I am Tutu in Charge — in a house of sleeping grandsons. How fortunate I am, God, to have this gift of time with them. Yes, God, I felt Your Nudge. This is a Time of Multiple Growth Opportunities. And my failures will be used as well as my successes — and You’re right — I may not be able to tell which is which.
Yesterday I took Ian for a “treat” at the Cold Stone Creamery. Ian ordered a small cup. And, God, I heard myself say: “That looks so small, Ian. What about getting a medium?” I knew he would order toppings and I thought they would fall off the small. (I know, That is NO EXCUSE — but I wanted to be “loving.”) Such is the POWER of the SUGAR SNAKE! Later in the car I said, “YOU WERE RIGHT, IAN — small would have been better.” And he agreed.
Thank You, God, for giving me the IMAGE of the Sugar Snake! I can FEEL her coiled in my belly — wanting to be fed — and feeding my Conscious Mind all sorts of rationalizations and “reasons” WHY I DESERVE SUGAR. Somehow this slight disassociation between Me and The Sugar Snake really helps me resist feeding her.
It has been a full week now since she has been fed. Still, “she” had no trouble getting me to order a medium (huge!) ice cream for Ian — and, God, I really do NOT want to confess this — I asked them to put in a third oreo cookie. (I hope Suz is not reading this!!!!)
When I look in the mirror, I can “see” Her coiled up in my belly. Still strong — and waiting. Thank You, God, for helping me to “see” the “Sugar Snake” as part of my Powerful Reptilian Brain.