Good Morning, God!
I saw this bright colored hibiscus yesterday and whipped out my camera to capture it for Kit. I was remembering the time I showed him a glorious hibiscus bush in full bloom — showed it to him for him to admire — and he said dismissively: It’s WHITE”!
Who would have known that preferring colors would preclude appreciation for white? But perhaps that is why men are always saying “You HAVE to prioritize”! So linear! So non-comprehendible! Like: how could a mother “prioritize” her children?
Oh, oh. Yes, God, You point out to me how blessed I am that I have never had to make that kind of really hard choice. Yes, we DO have to prioritize — we cannot do it all. But, it comes to me: WE CAN DO MORE THAN WE THINK WE CAN.
Hmmm. Actually, it is much more complex than that because I can do BOTH More and Less than I think I can. The Sabbath Day of Rest is essential. And when I cheat, I feel it. Now I LONG to keep it as my GIFT to myself — a Gift from You, God. That’s a GOOD Less.
At the same time, I have yet to succeed (read: failed) in creating a supportive structure that will help me with keeping on top of all my stuff — my wildly expanding, multiplying, proliferating — stuff.
A compounding factor is that I over-reward myself for things DONE and under-value and under-reward myself for STRUCTURE and for CLEAR DECKS! Hmm. Part of the problem is that I don’t know how to create a structure that WORKS for me.
Ah, but,God. It is a NEW DAY! And I have another shot at CREATING a SPACE STRUCTURE that will SUPPORT ME! Let’s GO!