Transitions are tricky — difficult. And preparing to do something really DIFFICULT — like running a marathon is particularly challenging.
Kit is running one in 11 days. We leave in just 6 days. And, I have noticed in that past that we both grow grumpier in the several weeks before the marathon. He is training hard and focused on what’s coming up. There isn’t a lot of energy left over for being cool and collected. He has an excellent excuse for being a tiny bit grumpy.
As for me — I overreact. Just like a mike too close to the speaker we set up a feedback loop. Oh my! When people are intertwined and love each other it is so easy for that to happen. I take things personally and flare. Actually, we were doing better than usual until he started to do the taxes.
Now, God, I am BLESSED! I have a husband who DOES the taxes. THATS GREAT! But the stress level has been such that last night I told him we are not ever ever going to combine doing taxes AND getting ready to go off for a marathon in the SAME WEEK. NOT EVER!
Well, yes, God. You do remind me that I am preparing for a big project, too. One that has me doing more than usual. I’m doing my share of grumpy. And, no. No, I didn’t do any centering prayer yesterday. I can feel You shaking Your Head.
I learn — but then I forget. Maybe that what Overloads are for? To help me learn to remember under STRESS? I did stop — right after You reminded me about Centering Prayer. I sat silently — wordlessly — consciously in Your Presence — and even after just a few minutes I felt much better.
So transitions and overload are HARD because I think Time with You is expendable! In fact, for me it is often the first to go. Sigh. It is hard being a Slow Learner. I’m so thankful that You are ENCOURAGING — and FORGIVING! Thank YOU! And THANK YOU ESPECIALLY FOR KIT!