Up in the middle of the night — Please, God, help me go back to sleep. Hold off the swarm of things WANTING to be done. Let me enter into Your DEEP rest of sleep. Amen!
I’m back, God, after a lovely deep sleep. But before I slept I read and responded to an email on the importance of having good food to make the ARV (AIDS medication) work for you instead of against you. It seems that the layers of helping orphans in Swaziland goes deeper and deeper. Everything IS connected to everything else, isn’t it! Thank you for letting me help — for adding my carrot to the soup.
Somehow, looking at this photo my brother sent me of this deer in his front yard, I am mindful of Your Provision for us and for the other Creatures. We have been given the position of Children — but we are still Your Creation. The trouble is, God, we seem to be action like children, and not grownups.
Yes, You’ve noticed, haven’t You. And, I can feel inside of myself the buffeting of discouragement. Give up — curl up — do nothing. . . these gusts of hopelessness are from a DARK PLACE. But they make me understand the essential nature of HOPE. Indeed, they make me see that HOPE is truly a GIFT FROM YOU! Is it hope that sends the deer out into the snow looking for edible twigs? Hope that is inextricably woven into our Life Force?
Ah, we do not venture out into the snow of reality without You and the help of Your Spirit, do we God. You have given us the gift of life and with it the gift of HOPE. Now, please God, give us gifts of wisdom and knowledge to act as You would have us act. Oh! It isn’t JUST wisdom and knowledge, You say. There are little matters like MY getting good nutrition and enough sleep and a weekly Day of Rest. Shoot, I am hearing DO WHAT YOU KNOW! Then come and ask to know more. Sigh. . . thank You. I think You call that being HUMBLE.
Story teller,
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