Good Day, God!
This morning was invested in Centering Prayer with a monthly group sponsored by the Contemplative Outreach of Hawaii. I sat with 20-30 other folks for three sessions of 30 minutes each. WONDERFUL. I am feeling peaceful and a bit more aligned and a lot less fearful. I’m smiling, God. Maybe even ready for another trip?
I was chatting with a dear friend afterwards and she asked me if that wasn’t HARD to do? Oh YES! It is Hard for me . . . .I’m active and chatty . .. full of Words! But, in a group — even a small group — I find it easy. I feel like I am carried by the prayers of the others.
And, I need carrying these days, God. I too — like everyone — am buffeted by diverse fears. My big Fear is that as our species hovers on the brink of a Double of Nothing choice — we will choose nothing. We all either seek Your Help — seek to rise to full Human Status — or we will fall back into Reptilian Behavior.
Ah, and now I am smiling ruefully. I need to seek Your Help. I need to pray FOR people. I have been careening downhill into a Pit of Dark Judgments. Dark, Stinky, Sticky Judgments. Like calling folks Zombies. Ick! I am projecting my darkness on to others. Most folks are good or at least see themselves as good. Wanting to serve You, even. But Fear has a frightful way of yanking us out of our higher level human brain and down into our Old Reptilian Brain.
Now, I need to start praying for You to help ME!