Good Evening, God!
Ambiguity and uncertainty are always with us, but, usually I ignore them! i visualize my path and I am fortunate that mostly things go pretty much as I expect. Not so for millions of people displaced by wars and storms!
So, I realize how fortunate I am. But, this last week I have become AWARE of UNCERTAINTY. My wonderful husband Kit is “planning” on running the Boston Marathon next Monday — April 20th.
But, a little over a week ago he came down with a “cold” that has left him feeling JUNK! At first he thought — Ah, heck! Let’s cancel everything! Then he got an email confirming the dinner we are having after the marathon with friends. — and we are to see our grandson on the trip. Hmm.
So, it seems we ARE going. And as a loving wife I am torn. Part of me wants him “safe” and not running. Another — somewhat smaller part — wants him to be happy doing whatever he wants.
I say, smaller. But, that part is dominant. Safe is so tempting. But we cannot keep loved ones safe against their will.
So, I am taking a deep breath, and putting us both into Your Hands, God. I just heard Kit cough. And so I pray for healing. There are a lot of folks on my Please Heal List — people I love and bring before You right now for healing.
Ah, but God, my heart longs for You to help ALL of us OPEN ourselves to Your Love! When we open that door to our heart and life You come in — You come not just to heal, but to help us empty the TRASH of our lives — our regrets — our resentments — our guilt, grief, pain and anger. I have All Manner of Toxic Trash that Love Alone can dissolve. Your Love, most of all.
Thank You, God, there are Limits in our lives . . . fences . . . but there are trees with beautiful blossoms, too. I’m thankful!