Good Evening, God!
I looked at this spider lily and thought, Hey! I, too, am in the process of blooming! That is such a hopeful image. Ah, God, You are still wanting to open up parts of me that have been closed off. You are not done with me. You are not done with any of us.
That’s the Good News. The Bad News is that my participation is required. Part of it is my saying Yes — as in SURE God, go ahead, make changes — let’s renovate!
I guess that is a daily, hourly, moment by moment sort of acquiescence — actually more an effortful activity — that a simple yes. Or, at least I wrestle, over and over again, with opening my Heart and Life to You.
Hmm. It is sort of a reverse of Jacob wrestling with The Angel of the Lord. It seems to me that You are the One wanting to Bless me . . . and I just want to “get away.”
Trust is hard — even with a life full of proof of Your Trust worthyness. Still, I fall back into that human condition of desiring Homeostasis — from the Greek for Standing Still. Will I choose changing over staying as I am?
Ah! And having just read that article in Wikipedia I learned that Homeostasis is designed into us. Effective Change is both slow and gradual. That makes such sense. Effectiveness isn’t crash diets — it is learning to eat a little less at every meal.
For most of us, Change is NOT a Road to Damascus Encounter. Rather is is a series of Small Acts of Trust — small yeses — small habits — that help us slowly unfold into the Self You have designed us to be. Thanks for Your Patience, God!