Happy New Year, God!
I am SO THANKFUL to be starting a New Year! The Old Year is GONE! And such a year it was: My Mother’s passing into Your Hands, Kit running Boston with the Bombings, then the Berlin Marathon in late September, and finally Kit’s not finishing the Honolulu Marathon in December. He said when I met him at mile 16 “I only wobbled when I stepped up onto the curb . . .” but wobble he did . . . and he DID stop when I asked him to. Thank You, again, God for THAT!
It is a good thing I had the renovation of the Arcadia library to occupy my mind and keep me busy — busy enough to keep the waves of emotions at bay. Now the renovation is done. Various trips — for Thanksgiving in Tucson and a Conference in Anaheim are done.
And I am done in. My Body has had a Cold for two weeks. I am coughing — instead of crying. My Body has Taken Charge of what my Heart Keeps Turning Away From — GRIEF, LOSS, SORROW and PAIN.
We are a TEAM, my Body is telling me. “Don’t make ME do YOUR work!” And my body is right.
In Your Universe, God, Joy does not preclude Sorrow. Joy is there to undergird and carry us through our Sorrows. Shakespeare said it best: “Give Sorrow Words; the Grief that does not Speak, Whispers to the O’r fraught Heart and Bids it Break.”
So, now God, I am turning around and looking Forward — forward to 2014. A New Year. And, yes, God, it will require of me a True Team Effort. Please, God, help me give my sorrow words . . . help me to weep and not to whine . . . and help me hold tight to the Joy and Hope that comes from You!