Good Morning, God!
I’m sitting here, thinking of the French geese that are force-fed to turn their normal 1/2 pound liver into a two pound liver — liver for fois gras!
Poor geese. Even if they are raised in the old French way, having a fatty liver can’t be fun.
As for me, after two weeks in France, I am sitting here with my liver much fattier than it was before our trip down the Seine. Sigh. I was not force-fed. I did it to myself.
I am NOT alone, God, in Voluntarily Force Feeding myself! That is a Societal and Cultural Problem that compounds my Personal Problem. Yes, God. It compounds, but does not excuse, my behavior. So, now after wining and dining (and lunching) myself to excess on our holiday in France, I am returning to a saner lifestyle. There is nothing more sobering — and useful –than failure!
How long will it take to undo the damage I have done to myself? I am estimating it takes ten times as long to undo force-feeding as it does to DO it. That’s sobering!
But, really, God, after listening to most of Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg, I understand that it isn’t just what I eat. The problem is what I label as REWARDS. That’s what needs changing.
So, how do I “reward” myself, God? Can I change what tastes like “love” to me? Can I step out of my Cultural Context and establish my very own Set of Rewards?
Not simple questions, God! I will need to keep coming back for Your Help!