Good Morning, God!
I’m remembering a line from M. Scott Peck. It is something to the effect that A Parent Who Refuses to Learn From His Child Is Condemned to an Early Senility. That statement rings too true!
Thank You, God, that my husband, Kit, and I do seem — finally — to be learning from Suzanne. It is so easy for children to lose heart and give up on their parents. Now that I think about it, God, there have been long periods when I have given up on myself!
“Not giving up” — persisting — is, like many gifts, a two-edged sword. As I write that I “sit up straighter” thinking of Suzanne’s encouraging words. I’m so thankful, God, that Suzy has not “given up” on us.
Our plans for this morning went awry — as happens when cell phones are not left on. But, while we continued to call — Suzy and Kit and I gathered in our queen-sized bed and talked and talked and talked.
I’m feeling that I have finally reached the point where I recognize just how much I need Suzy’s help. I’m feeling it, God — not just thinking it.
Thank You, God! Thank You. It turns out that I am a very proud person. [A gift of self-awareness that came while reading the Secret Garden.] And it is incredibly hard for VPPs to even catch a glimpse of that pride, let alone get “free enough” to cry for help.
Ah, and now to take that help! Because, God, I have been here before, but briefly. I will want to forget. I will want to go back to protecting myself by being a Very Proud Person.
Please, God, I will need You to help me follow through. You and Suzanne.