Good Afternoon, God!
I was way too relaxed to try to write this morning. Relaxed, thankful and perhaps a tad depleted. Also, not willing to tussle with online network problems at the hotel. Funny, God, how cheap hotels provide free wifi — while slightly more upscale hotels charge or, as in this case, fail to provide it at all. Yes, God. You are right. I am still huffy. Sigh. Our daughter Sandy — who came out from Tucson to watch her dad run — has told me to “Let it GO!”
As is often the case, we dislike most in others qualities that we ourselves have. Going “on and on” is surely what I have been doing. Hmmm. A failure to forgive petty matters doesn’t bode will for forgiving larger matters.
Rats! It is always disconcerting to catch a glimpse of myself when I am not “smiling at the camera,” so to speak. Devastating might be a better word — in fact, that is probably the appropriate response. The experience is rather like trying on clothes in a store in front of a three-way mirror — which I happened to do today.
Unfortunately, my Inner Editor does an amazing job of deleting Moments of Awareness from my memory. I guess, God, this is where doing the Prayer of Examine — AND keeping a nightly Examine Journal would be helpful. Of course, I would have to reread it. Ugh!