Good Morning, God!
My computer is now almost completely reassembled. A Senior Advisor at Apple spent over two hours on the phone “holding my hand” as I found and restored files from my Time Machine. I love that help!
Hmmm. I wish I were as good at asking for help for myself as I am for my computer. How long ago was it, God, that I felt You were telling me to write down ten areas in which I needed help and then find ten people in each area that are willing to help?
Sigh, maybe ten years ago? The point is, I like most of my generation see “Needing Help” as failing — and “Asking for Help” as cheating. That is so dumb, God! But, at some deep inner level that is what I am dealing with. Or, as You just pointed out — NOT dealing with,
This morning, God, I had thought I wanted to talk about the newly opened Pearl Harbor Historic Sites with this new symbol of the Tree of Life. I wanted to ponder peace and reconciliation. Not think about my own Inner Peace.
But, God, You have told us to Love our Neighbor as we Love Ourselves. Somehow they ARE intertwined. I have always felt that I do love myself — maybe even too much.
But, the thought is tiptoeing into my mind that maybe I could be finding, acknowledging and loving the Needy parts of myself? That MAYBE I would be more fully me if I was willing to see where I need help? Yes, God. That feels like a very useful question. A profoundly and unsettlingly humble question.