Why Can’t I Hear Cat — and Myself?

Posted on August 23, 2011 by a moment with god — Leave a comment

My Mother's Cat --Willing me to understand

Good Morning, God!

I must say, God, I have never had a Cat speak so INSISTENTLY as my mother’s cat does. It feels as if she is using “telepathy” to communicate. Only I rather think telepathy doesn’t require quite so much “effort.” Alas, I am not receiving her message. I try. I check her food bowl, water dish and her litter box. Still, I don’t understand.

Hmmm. Looking at this photo has brought to my mind my own Unconscious. Yes, God, that feels right. I am pretty sure that I have a Number of Parts of Me that WANT to communicate with the Conscious Me just as badly as Mom’s cat wants to communicate.

I was going to ask You: WHY DON’T THESE INNER PARTS JUST SPEAK UP? But, of course, I know that for reasons known only to You, God, there is a barrier between the Conscious Me and the Creatures Swimming in my Unconscious. Are they REALLY me, too?

Aargh. They ARE! They are Parts I have rejected or denied. And now I am thinking back to Jack Deere, the speaker at the conference I just attended, who shared how he insisted (angrily) the he DID NOT have an Anger Problem! I heard that. Anger runs in my family, too, God. I thought my anger problem had gone away. But, it just got better at hiding.

You are right, God. The rejected parts are waiting for me. I am feeling that YOU want me to love them with Your Love. Love them and absorb what they have to offer me. Even Anger? Yes, even Normal Anger. Normal Anger is Energy and a Protective Force. It, like all the Other Submerged Parts, has qualities to contribute. And, they are waiting. Wanting me to Understand them.

But I feel “nudged” God, to ask a friend to pray for any Excessive Anger that might be hiding deep down inside me!