Good Morning, God!
Yikes! Yesterday my office reached such a state of FULLNESS that I didn’t even want to be in it. Fullness is a very charitable word. It felt as if years worth of undone work was lurking in this particular corner.
I suppose, God, that it would really only several months process it. And it had only backed up for maybe a couple of years. I don’t want to exaggerate — TOO much.
Now, I have not done anything other than remove the piles to the dining room table downstairs. I still have three or four more piles to go. But, I am SO MUCH HAPPIER sitting here now that the corner has been cleaned! The idea came to me while I was doing Centering Prayer.
I do understand, God, that during Centering Prayer we are to let ideas float past us. But I couldn’t resist snagging this one. Actually, the best part of the idea was putting one of my small palm trees into the clean corner. The palm has a calming influence. Do You suppose, God, it is the oxygen it is putting out?
Anyway, God, I am so eager to RELEASE Papers, Fat Cells, Traumatic Memories, Regrets, Fears and To-Do Lists. Yesterday, it became clear just how MUCH I have to process and release. Being busy wasn’t just a way to “excuse” myself from doing that work. It was a way of keeping myself from even knowing that I have major detoxing work to do!
What was it Suz said to me yesterday, God? Something about acknowledging my need for help? Yes, God, I have a FEAR of being NEEDY. How foolish I am. Please help me!