Good Morning, God!
Our dining room table is clear! For five weeks it was Heaped with PILES of papers and folders and “things to do” that I had carried down from my office. Every time I got close to those heaps and piles — I felt a revulsion! I couldn’t face them!
But, this Monday afternoon, I tipptoed back to a “Blacked Out” period in my early childhood –when I was maybe two years old. I let myself feel the Sorrow and Fear that was hidden there. I felt it and gently named it — out loud, to Mavis my therapist. That’s all I did. It doesn’t sound like much, does it?
But, it seemed to set something free. And it released a lot of energy, too. Because I came home and went right to the piles on the table and started to work! There was eagerness instead of revultion. I worked steadily for over two hours and then more after dinner — and I got up yesterday morning and finished it by noon! Even more amazing than my DOING IT, God, was my ENJOYING IT. Enjoying it? Enjoying doing that sorting and filing? That’s a Miracle, God! THANK YOU!
This whole THING feels more like a Transformation than a Healing. And, God, I confess that part of me thinks that this can’t last! Maybe it was just a temporary “gift” or reinforcement to reward me for going for help? Healing or Transformation — I am grateful!
And way down deep inside me — there is a “comforted” little child — singing softly. And she is grateful, too.