A CLEAR and CLEAN dining room table
Good Morning, God!
Our dining room table is clear! For five weeks it was Heaped with PILES of papers and folders and “things to do” that I had carried down from my office. Every time I got close to those heaps and piles — I felt a revulsion! I couldn’t face them!
But, this Monday afternoon, I tipptoed back to a “Blacked Out” period in my early childhood –when I was maybe two years old. I let myself feel the Sorrow and Fear that was hidden there. I felt it and gently named it — out loud, to Mavis my therapist. That’s all I did. It doesn’t sound like much, does it?
But, it seemed to set something free. And it released a lot of energy, too. Because I came home and went right to the piles on the table and started to work! There was eagerness instead of revultion. I worked steadily for over two hours and then more after dinner — and I got up yesterday morning and finished it by noon! Even more amazing than my DOING IT, God, was my ENJOYING IT. Enjoying it? Enjoying doing that sorting and filing? That’s a Miracle, God! THANK YOU!
This whole THING feels more like a Transformation than a Healing. And, God, I confess that part of me thinks that this can’t last! Maybe it was just a temporary “gift” or reinforcement to reward me for going for help? Healing or Transformation — I am grateful!
And way down deep inside me — there is a “comforted” little child — singing softly. And she is grateful, too.
Story teller,
Interesting. Passing it on is one of the things I like about you.
Katherine