Hi God,
You have set my feet on an unfamiliar path. Not that accompanying a loved one to death is unfamiliar. After all, I walked that path with our daughter Patty back in June of 1981. But I am learning that it is a different path for spouses — especially for a wife of 65 years. Different HOW . . . I ask myself. Both loved ones — being entrusted into Your Hands. . . yes . . . but . . .
Then this morning, as oldest daughter Suzanne was taking me on our morning walk, she helped me understand. My wonderful husband Kit has run 57 marathons. And I have been there to meet him at the finish of each one. That is my JOB. That is WHAT I DO.
And now, as Kit runs his final (metaphorical) marathon, I feel such a strong pull to once again meet him after he finishes. It is a pull that both our daughters sense in me. They sense it more than I do. It is as if I am compelled by some primal force to be with him on the Other Side of the Finish Line. This Force is buried DEEP within me. It does not reveal itself. It just IS.
YIKES! I must say . . . it was a shock to discover this inner FORCE. Consciously, God, I am counting on YOU meeting Kit on the other side of the Finish Line. Not me! But, this Primal Part feels puzzled. Donʻt I always meet him after a marathon? So, I try to share this with Kit. I try to give this Thing words. More for my sake than Kitʻs.
I need help. And I have turned for help — not so much to my rational thinking part as to another Primal Part of myself. Not the Wife, but The Mother! I tell myself we have two amazing daughters and two wonderful grandsons. I need to be HERE for them. Am I needed? It does not matter. I perceive myself as essential.
I am smiling now, God. As it comes to me that our beloved country is also on an unfamiliar path. Turning, ever so slowly toward a major change. May I — may all of us — choose to Walk with You as we seek to be more aware . . . more trusting and more in tune with Your Love.
Sigh, what I really need is to trust You enough to let the Holy Spirit FLOW through me. . . helping me to let go of a much beloved past. Helping me to build — with faith and love — a New Story.
Story teller,
A Moment with God 
Sending much love your way,Margie.
Thank you for sharing this very real, deep, and true part of your life story.
These moments are so precious and vitally important. Sharing your experience helps us all to open our hearts and our minds to love and trust.
We need you to share your self in this way – vulnerability is where we can truly meet and make a way for life.
I will be praying for you and Kit and for all your beloveds during this time, my friend.
Much love from me to you and Kit — Gary
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