Communing with my Inner Self — the Last Frontier
Good Morning, God
It was just this morning — while taking part in a guided Welcoming Prayer — that I sort of heard my Second Brain speaking. She was rejoicing at having a positive, compassionate attention focused on her. My First Brain — what I used to think of as my ONLY brain — was listening to her. *
Now, I understand, God, that the words speaking and listening are inadequate to capture what was going on. But, it felt like a flow of respect and interest between these two brains — separated so long ago in the womb. And more and more I am defining “love” as something that begins with “respect.” And that is what this gentle flow — back and forth — felt like! Respect!
Sigh, my First Brain, has been trained to focus and fix! She has opinions, hypotheses even! So for her to be softly and respectfully reaching out to commune — to receive — was a wonder. (I am pretty sure that was possible because of the loving kindness of my friend Pulelehua, who has been a wonderful guide into the Welcoming Prayer. She is presenting the Welcoming Prayer Embodied at the 2021 Parliament of the World’s Religions this weekend.) This morning, it felt like a new experience — a very much welcomed experience of inner peace and compassion.
I found myself thinking that THIS is the key to World Peace! This peaceful, respectful communing with my full self. Aha, so THIS is what self compassion feels like. There was no judging. No regret. No anger. No hate. There was Nothing that I wanted to project out onto others. . . .
There was only a gathering awareness of my Second Brain as another Entity — One that loved me — One that I was slowly coming to acknowledge, respect and love.
*(These two brains begin as one in the womb — then the Neural Mass divided — with one half going to the head and the other to the gut.)