Good Evening, God
I love finding beautiful flowers and ripening fruits as we walk in our valley. And I especially love the areas that fall “outside” of anyones responsibility. To me, they are tiny oases of wilderness. And their exuberant messy snarl is appealing. Well, it is appealing outside. I do not like it nearly as well when it grows and proliferates in my office.
In fact, God, I still remember the moment when I saw the face of the new iPhone. To me it was perfect! Lots of options. Clearly presented. With an uncluttered black background. Sigh. This is not the space I inhabit. Although, I have not given up!
Perhaps that is why discovering that I can reframe some of my inner qualities as Apps, is so very appealing. It brings them up to the surface of my mind. It sets them off as having a semi separate existence. And it reminds me that they have settings. I can recalibrate and adjust them. It gives me a neutral way of accessing and influencing my own behavior. . . not judging or shaming . . . just adjusting.
So this morning, when I realized that I have A Starter App I was overjoyed. This will help me break into the flow of my day. I drift through the day enjoying whatever. . . and then it is time for bed. Ah ha! A Starter App would allow me to interrupt my pleasant haze and start my 5 minutes of exercise. Or start filling out a form or call a friend. Once I started, then inertia would work for me. But, as You can see, God, I am thinking small. Five minutes. Or maybe ten. I know I need to build in a Timer, because, once started I can forget to stop. I can get so excited at finally starting exercising that I pull muscles, get sore, etc.
Once again, life is all about balance. I want both Messy Creativity AND Purposeful Organization.