Good Evening, God
There are layers upon layers of Reality. Almost all of them beyond my ability to perceive — or comprehend. But, somehow that feels like what we are called to do. I marvel at what we as a species have been able to understand.
Mostly I enjoy learning. The trouble comes when I learn something about myself that I don’t like. Over the years I have gotten better about accepting that enhanced view of myself as valid –accepting, repenting, and making amends when I can. Seeing more complete view of myself quickly leads to humility. But, now — thank goodness — I have a fuller understanding of humility.
From a Mussar (Jewish spiritual practice) perspective, humility is not making oneself low or little. Instead, it’s about knowing one’s place in the world, taking up the appropriate space based on our situation and leaving room for others.
What are we called to be? What are we called to do? I love the story of Rabbi Zusya who on his deathbed said, “In the coming world, they will not ask me: ‘Why were you not Moses?’ They will ask me: ‘Why were you not Zusya?” It sounds simple. But, I am finding that being me, Margie, is not as easy as it sounds.
While writing this I asked myself what my aspirations are: A. Being curious — as in learning and then seeing possible patterns in what I have learned. B. Being compassionate — as in respecting and encouraging those within my sphere of connections. C. Being creative — as in, can I add to the beauty around me, can I create even a day that satisfies my innermost being.
It is fun to ponder these things. . . and to share them.