Releasing Constrictions

Borobudur, Magelang, Indonesia

Good Evening, God

Is there anything more constricted than a grieving heart before it breaks open? I have been focused on the term “Constricted” for the last few weeks. It started with an awareness that I didn’t want anything “tight” on me . . . especially as I did my Centering Prayer. I didn’t want to block the flow of blood and lymphatic fluids. This morning I extended the concept of “Constricted” to piles of stuff that I hadn’t been able or willing to deal with. I saw them as “holding a portion of my energy captive” — constricting the flow of decision making. With Susan Miller’s help I listed them down and then we managed to clean out most of them.

Then as I prayed this afternoon my understanding was expanded a little bit more:

Releasing Constrictions

Today has been A Day devoted to
De-constricting

First piles of unprocessed stuff
Magazines Unread
A guest bed piled
With Wednesday night Lenten stuff
And Sunday morning Learning Tree stuff still not put away

Desk stuff carefully set aside For Later and Much Later
And so on and so forth

Each Pile Holding My Energy Captive
Mental and Emotional Energy

And now in my Heart I find Still more Constrictions
The Constrictions of Grief
More Energy Frozen
Holding me motionless
Paralyzed

Finally Ice floes crack And start to move
Releasing me into pain that Can Be Spoken
Expressed and Shared

Inadequate of course But inadequate is all we are ever given
And that too Breaks me
Further
OPEN

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