Good Afternoon, God!
I’m giving a class on forgiveness this February. So naturally, I am having an Enhanced Awareness of how much I need to forgive — mostly myself. Funny, God, how easy it is to bury deep inside us our mistakes and shortcomings.
But, sometimes, my awareness is dramatic. I realized I needed to give this class again when I woke up from a vivid dream in which I was choking and yelling at a man who had cheated my oldest daughter. Even I, God, know that was taking being a “Mother Tiger” too far.
So, believing that truly, “To Teach is to Learn Twice” I offered to teach a class on Forgiving. Two years ago I taught one and created massive handouts. This series is briefer (20-30 minutes over the four Sundays in February) and my approach is a little different. I still want to offer both secular and spiritual information. But, this time I want to focus on stories.
Information (facts and data) mostly stay in our Mind. But, stories sneak into our Heart and sometimes our Gut. Our Heart seems to be the pivot point in changing.
I was Centering this afternoon — and pondering one of the stories — the one about Chuck. (It’s on this site: in Stories under the title Memories.) I was wondering why it took Chuck so long to go to the doctor with his nightmares?
Duh! He was afraid! Now, God, I never asked him. But, if he was like me he was afraid. Maybe afraid he had a brain tumor? Maybe afraid he was going crazy? Or maybe he was afraid to admit he was so very afraid?
After all, Northern Europeans like me have been bred to fight. Bred to be fearless — or at least to be afraid of showing fear. How silly! Please help me be more open — more honest — more Aware of Your Love!