Good Afternoon, God!
I’m trying to go slow these days . . . slow because I’m tired . . . tired deep inside. Well, OK, not just tired. I have also been grumpy and irritable.
In fact, on my drive home yesterday, You brought to my attention that I have been way too cross with my wonderful husband Kit. Worse, I’ve failed to lavish on him the appreciation he deserves for being so good to my Mom all these years — especially the last nine years when he has helped in so many ways.
So, I came home and hugged Kit and appreciated him . . . and told him I would take him out for dinner — my treat.
Kit, with Scottish and New England roots, said he had a discount coupon for the local Yummy Korean Barbecue. So, with takeout food in cartons, we found a private outdoor table. As advertised, the food was yummy and the venue fantastic.
My Mom, now in hospice care, is mostly sleeping. But she has told me always to wake her up when I visit. When I do, we talk and squeeze each other’s hands. I don’t stay long. I tell myself it’s because I don’t want to tire her . . .
What I am realizing — more and more — is how precious family and friends are. I need to be with them. I need them. I may need them more than most people do because I am an extrovert. But, in addition, I am feeling more and more a part of The Web of Life. More than ever I sense that it extends further and deeper than we humans can begin to imagine.
Thank You, God for Times of Twilight . . . Times of Love.