Getting Ready to Go

Posted on July 16, 2012 by a moment with god — 1 Comment

flowers of the paperbark tree

Good Day, God!

I have been busy — working hard at cleaning the back of closets for our carpets to be cleaned — and then this morning cleaning out piles and files from years ago. I have a big garbage bag full of trash. And a box of paper to recycle.

And I’ve been busy getting ready to go on yet another trip — this time with Kit — as we go to celebrate his brother’s 80th birthday.

80 is a big marker, God. I have several years to go but, I am beginning to “feel” older. Up until now my attitude has been to ignore aging. That is still my attitude. But, I notice that my training jogs are filled with more photo opportunities. Sigh.

And I have also noticed the high price of “not knowing” and “not doing.” Today I did something that I have been refusing to think about. I filled out paperwork to try and make sure that my mother — who I am trusting has years left — won’t be resuscitated. That sounds awful, God. But, the electric shock used in resuscitation is almost guaranteed to crush ribs. Oh! How have we gotten to this horrible state where a Natural Death is not the norm? Lawsuits I guess.

The paperwork involved a POLST form with a doctor’s signature. And tomorrow I have to post it. Kit questioned the need for it saying that surely everyone would know better. But, I pointed out some children might sue if every step wasn’t taken. This child would not sue. But, she sure didn’t want to make that decision.

Sigh. Now that I have faced my duty I am feeling better. I takes a lot of energy to surpress stuff. Please, God, help me grow up.