Good Morning, God!
So often, when I have to do something, I tend to think that I’ll do it later. The thing about LATER is that so many things can be stored in it. Later is endlessly expandable. But, NOW mostly only holds One Thing. And, that means that we have to decidewhat to put in our Now.
Deciding is hard. But, the other morning it hit me with fresh power that Later is very close to Never. That’s especially true with Dawn, and I realized that morning was the first dawn “with clouds” since I’ve arrived in Tucson. It was the thought of pink clouds that got me up. And once up and moving, it was easier to keep moving. So I went out jogging — this time for a full two miles. Newton was right. Bodies in motion tend to stay in motion.
Reflecting on this, it comes to me, God, that “A Day” is rather like an empty necklace chain — with activities like beads. Such a variety of shapes and colors, God! And, mostly, I get to select the beads I string. I’m pretty much free to choose what I do and when I do it. Now that I am retired again I have this gift of freedom. Freedom is a terrible thing to waste, God. And, I suspect it was some variation of that “thought” that has kept me so busy over the years.
Because, God, it is hard for me to grasp that Nothing can be the Very Best Something. I’m sure that is why I love the Benedictine Retreat Center at Snowmass so very much. Sitting in silence was a Something. It was even a scheduled Something. The value it was given, and the ritual surrounding it, helped me see it as a beautiful bead that I can string on the necklace of my days. But, now that I am home, that bead is covered over by the other beads. Please, God, help me in my NOWS to choose wisely.