Good Morning, God!
I’ve been trying to tell folks how it is that I feel so much LIGHTER since I have (mostly) retired. In truth, God, I am not yet THAT blessed with “free time” as there are a few more training sessions to do. But, I still feel much lighter. In fact, I am surprised at what a difference just Shedding Responsibility makes! Before, I felt the weight of all the things that needed to be done — if not by me — then at least with me.
As I observed years ago, God, it isn’t the work we do that makes us tired. It is the work we don’t do that sits on top of us — pressing down and exhausting us.
So, WHY did it take SO LONG for me to realize I was “Too Busy?” It wasn’t that family and friends didn’t point that reality out to me. They did. And blessings on them, God. But, there were so many pluses to working — good friends, duty, loyalty, habit . . . and yes, I confess, an “enhanced sense of identity.” And those pluses kept me clinging and holding on. Hmmm. Now that I look back, I can see that there were innumerable emotional tentacles holding me fast.
For me to make this SHIFT it took a Ten Day Silent Retreat at St. Benedict’s Retreat Center. Sitting in Silence before You 3 times a day — refraining from talking for much of the day — disconnection from the internet — all this helped to loosen my addition to busy. The “enforced” relaxation helped me OPEN my Hands and Heart . . .opening to You and Your Small Quiet Voice of Wisdom. Thank You, God! THANK YOU!
Now, God, please help me Value Slow!