Good Morning, God!
Whooosh! Yesterday MUST have been more stressful than I realized as my faithful back had painful twinges all day long. I don’t blame my back at all — because meeting with the 20-person library committee to go over what I have been doing and my suggestions for how else it can be done — that was stressful.
Hmm. I bet my Back is doing my emotional work for me. Well, yes, God, there is some loss and sadness involved in leaving all these dear people — in leaving my “helping” roles. And, I was going to say BUT . . . and put a good face on it.
But, that isn’t what my Back wants, God. My Back wants me to stay in my feelings of loss — stay in my feelings of uncertainty. My Back wants me to just sit here and FEEL — feel sad and a little lost.
Dang! I sure don’t like this FEELING, God! Every bit of my Inner Warrior is opposed to feeling vulnerable, helpless, sad and weak.
Oh my. It has been Inner Warrior’s job to protect me ever since my childhood days and I am grateful to her. But, now it’s time for ME to deal with My Feelings and Care for Them.
Please, God, Hold my Valiant Inner Spirit. Hold Her and Me — in Your Lap. Help me as I THANK HER for her stalwart courage, loyalty and faithfulness. Please help me, God, as I invite her to join me in learning new tasks — new skills — and to grow, with me, into a New Creature. All this, God, with Your Help.