Squeezing The Sugar Snake Back in A Nutrient CageCage

Good Morning, God!

Let’s see, it’s been over three days since my last sugar fix. I’m almost clean! And, I’m visiting Suz who is a great “role model” and a bite of a “monitor.” That helps, God! And I NEED the help.

Both Kit and Suz have no problem with “going without” food. Kit even LIKES weight loss “games.” But, my Body PANICS! Now, yesterday, Suz and I had a light breakfast around 9ish and agreed we’d have a late lunch. We got so into shopping we didn’t eat “lunch” at all — but had an early dinner at 5. My Body didn’t seem to even notice, let alone mind.

How could that be, God? Hmm. One difference is the Variety of Food that my Body is getting. So far I’ve had exquisite (mostly vegetables) Japanese food, Korean food with 32 different tiny side dishes, and Lebanese food. My Body seems delighted! And I do remember that our pre-agricultural ancestors ate 800 different foods over the course of a year. So, maybe God, the variety is giving my Body the nutrients it needs? Enough nutrients so my Body isn’t anxious?

Looking up at the photo I took of our Lebanese dinner I can see that the tabouli is almost entirely parsley — while American versions are mostly bulgar wheat. The waiter told us that parsley has 14 vitamins in it. No wonder I wasn’t hungry later!

Hmmm. That’s sort of a foreground background shift on thinking about obesity, isn’t it, God? Seeing obesity as caused by the ABSENCE of nutrients — not the EXCESS of calories? That FEELS, God, like a VERY USEFUL THOUGHT. Please help me –help all of us in “Industrial Societies” — eat more nutrient rich foods. Alas, the best nutrients don’t “live” in boxes sitting on shelves.

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A Mystery Food

Good Morning, God!

Yesterday, Suz said “I have a food for you that you’ve NEVER had.” I admit I was dubious — after all I’ve eaten quite a few foods. But as soon as I saw it, I knew Suz was right!

“TASTE IT!” she said, “and GUESS what it is!” — so, I did. At my first bite I said “Avocado!” But I knew that wasn’t right. So, I had another bite — with a squeeze of lemon and a pinch of sea salt. I still had NO idea, God, what it was! Fortunately, SUZ gave me a “hint” by pointing to the shape inside. The shape was familiar. A baby ALMOND! I was eating fresh almonds!

Suz said she had tried one years earlier, and didn’t like it. But then a couple of weeks ago, Suz saw a Persian man buying a pound at the Farmers’ Market and she asked him, “How do you eat them?” He said, “You scrub off the fuzz and eat them with lemon juice and salt. That’s all. They’re GOOD for you!”

They really did taste as if they were good for me — in a very positive way — refreshing and satisfying. But, it was IMPORTANT to know that the thick grey fuzz had to come off and that lemon juice and salt helped!

For some reason, God, I’m thinking not of food now, but of communication. There are pieces of “information” that would be “good for us” to know — but they are wrapped in the “grey fuzz” of judgment — which is hard to scrub off! And, if we don’t know about ADDING the “lemon juice of humor” or the “salt of affirmation” then the information is not going to be “consumed.”

Funny — or sad — God, how much energy we put into preparing a meal, but, how little real attention we put into our conversational interactions. Please, God, help me pay more attention to both what I eat and what I say!

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Underway — and now in LA

Good Morning, God

Just now, looking out the plane’s window at the air flowing over the wing, I thought about how it is the plane pushing forward the creates the LIFT on the wings — enough “lift” to raise the whole plane and all its contents skyward. The wings just don’t look BIG ENOUGH to do that. However did they discover that? (And, if I knew how to add one of my photos I would HAVE a photo of my plane’s wing.)

Learning involves effort –I am used to living without much frustration — so I have forgotten that it is part of pushing through to new connections. Amy Chua understands that. Understands that PART of parenting or teaching is to push or pull the “child” into to experiencing that.

I remember when I learned that work could be satisfying. I was mopping the floor at the Girl Scout camp at Emerald Bay, Catalina. I was doing it “under duress” but midway through it came to me that I was enjoying seeing the floor become clean.

Ah, but I did not learn it well enough to teach it! Hmmm. I didn’t learn it well enough to use it in my own life — let alone, pass it on. So, HERE is another chance. Another series of chances.

Thank You, God, for new days, new opportunities, new chances. Life isn’t, perhaps, so much about “getting it Right” as it is about pressing forward with the choosing. Not so much in the EFFORT as in the SENSING? Discerning?

Now off into a Day of being in Your Compassionate — and quietly encouraging — presence.

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The Call to Listen

Retreat Center at Snowmass, Colorade

Good Morning, God!

This will be my last blog on my Mac Book Pro — at least for a few weeks! If I can, I will send blogs via my iPad 2. If not, then we shall have a lovely series of private conversations.

Friends are joking, God, about my being silent for 10 days.  I shouldn’t wonder! I do a LOT of TALKING!  And Centering Prayer is about LISTENING.

Today at Rotary, Sister Joan told me that Sister Katherine used to wait for 3 or more sessions when doing her Spiritual Direction before she made comments or offered suggestions. She WAITED and LISTENED until she heard the hidden “whys” behind the situations.

She was listening to the person being “directed” but she was listening even more closely to You. Ah, her Self must have been so permeable — so transparent.

It is very tempting, God, to say that I am just a WORD person. But, that is to miss the point. We are invited to REACH UP — to GROW into new ways of Being. So, God, here is my Prayer. Help me let go of old ways to make way for anything new You might want to do.

Posted in a series of molts and upgrades, a surfeit of sound, Adventures, afraid of quiet?, Light shining through, listening

Traveling Toward A “Time of Listening”

The Grand Canal, Venice -- pastel by Ann Peters

Good Morning, God!

I love this pastel of a lone gondolier on the Grand Canal. Actually, I love Venice. The Sea may be rising — but they are adapting.  Hmm. It seems to me that we do the same with Aging. We adapt.

Adaptation seems a lot like Maintenance in that it is essential but unappreciated.

Our culture admires the Alamo or the Masada — people who refused to surrender — refused to accept and adapt. Somehow that seems clearer in History where we have “picked sides” and labeled some “noble” and others “bad.” But, when exactly to resist and when to “walk away or walk around” is messy.

Jesus “stepped around” Roman rule. He would not have been at Masada. He had a “Higher Context” — a Higher Calling. We ALL have Higher Callings, don’t we God.  So, today — as I unpack and repack and do the laundry and tidy up loose ends — I am setting off toward a Time of Listening: My second 10-day silent retreat at the Benedictine Monastery in Snowmass, Colorado.

In the first one, in 1995, You helped me empty out tons of resentment and regret — anger and judgments — left over from working. This time it feels more like You intend on Rearranging — but it is UP to YOU!  I shall show up and go along.

And, yes, I “hear” You saying that “listening” is part of an on-going connection. But, it feels as if I have way too much daily detritus to have a clear connection. Please, God, I want Your Help in Sorting Things Out. I WANT more time with People — Beloved Family and Beloved Friends. So off I go into a period of Silence and Solitude — a Time to Pull Back and be Pruned. Thank YOU!

Posted in a hand up, A Spiritual Spring Cleaning, adjusting, Maintenance, Rethinking

The Surprise of Easter Morning

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Heliconia -- hanging one behind the other

Good Morning, God!

Easter!  Easter Morning!  I was looking for a flower that would capture the GLORY of the Day. But, truly, God, what flower could?

To dip into the mundane world for a minute — my new suitcase — intermediate size — did not arrive last night. I awoke this morning listing the contents and “missing” them. That isn’t at all like the WAY in which we MISS a PERSON, God. But, it made me think of all of Jesus’ friends and family — MISSING HIM.

Grieving all day Friday, all day Saturday — MISSING HIM. But, unlike me and my suitcase, they were not EXPECTING HIM TO RETURN!

Now, I hope to be happy upon the return of my suitcase. But, I sit here, trying to compare that to the AMAZED GLORIOUS SURPRISED JOY of the disciples upon the Return of Jesus!

If I will be happy at the return of my “missing” suitcase — how much MORE did the disciples — REJOICE at The Return of Jesus, on Easter!

Jesus had tried to explain, God. But, his followers COULD NOT COMPREHEND!  I don’t blame them AT ALL!  Miracles are one thing — rising from the DEAD — quite another. Even after the miracle of Lazarus, God, our human minds, don’t seem to stretch THAT FAR.

We need Your Help, God, to grasp that — or is it to be GRASPED BY IT? It seems to me, God, that You LONG to BRING US INTO YOUR KINGDOM!  A kingdom in which everything is TURNED right-side-up!  In which we are empowered to Love our neighbors AS we love ourselves. A Kingdom of Love, of Light, of Life Eternal. WOW!

Posted in Easter, Expand my Heart, Light, LOVE

On Being Between — Travel and Transitions

The Gold Dragon of Pern

Good Morning, God!

This morning Kit and I fly back home — spending most of the day BETWEEN Tucson and Honolulu.

I feel “between” God. I think I am in the middle of a “molt” which tends to make me grumpy. I am neither who I was — nor who I am going to be. It is not a “comfortable” feeling, God.

Being “between” brings to mind the science fiction / fantasy of Anne McCaffrey in which the “dragons” of Pern — a far flung planet — could “travel” by going “between.”  Between was apparently another dimension. What’s fun, God, is that there really do seem to be MORE dimensions than we (humans) experience. Your Creation is AWESOME!

And this is Holy Saturday too. Somehow being”between” on Holy Saturday seems appropriate. Jesus must have been “between” on that Saturday — between Good Friday and Easter! And who knows exactly where.

There is so much mystery in this World and in The Universe. So much we don’t know! And then there are all the facts we “know” that aren’t true. For example, in The Brain That Changes Itself, the author tells how our brains CAN grown new brain cells and how that discovery overturned 100 years of scientific dogma. I love it, God, when Science overturns FORMER FACTS.

That’s the sort of thing that makes for Humility — if one stops and ponders it. Hmm. There’s yet another Between, God, — Between Humility and Hubris. And, now that I think about it, our cultural “heros” or at least “C.E.O.” are clearly on the Hubris End.

All that Hubris scares me. My only hope, God, is that — WITH YOUR HELP — Our Western Culture can be undergoing a Molt, too. Between where we are  — and where You Call us to be.

Posted in Between, Holy Saturday, setting my life in context, The difficulty of changing, Transitions

Thoughts on Suitcases and Life

This is NOT my suitcase: it is from a blog by Jill Ann Duling

Good Morning, God!

I have always marveled at Light Packers. So, finally, on this trip  I bought a small carry-on size suitcase and set about packing light.  Kit explained that it was just two “Long Weekends.”

That IS true, God, but Boston’s COLD and Tucson’s NOT!

But, I am officially giving up. On our “long week-end” in Boston, Kit asked me on each of the first 3 days if he could borrow my small scissors — which are not allowed on carry-ons. And, so it went!

But, this exercise in futility and frustration was not without benefit. I learned that I pack until full. I do this with suitcases, and my Days and my Stomach. None of this could be considered wise — or sensible — or healthy.

In looking around for possible “THINGS TO BLAME” God, I have decided to begin with our Western Concept of Aesthetics where Negative Space is not seen as having its own lovely Presence — but as only an EMPTY space to fill.  Alas, God!, That’s my mindset.

And that Mindset still HOLDS SWAY — even after I have enjoyed and benefited from Centering Prayer, and books on assorted Spiritual Disciplines — most of which extoll LESS — as in FASTING, SILENCE, SOLITUDE and SABBATH KEEPING.

Hmmm.  I’m tempted to write myself off as HOPELESS! But, this is Good Friday, God.  A Day that reminds me that You do not give up on us. You CONTINUE to LOVE. You CONTINUE to CALL TO US — COME HOME — ALL is FORGIVEN.

So, here I am — my new intermediate suitcase ready to be packed — next month off for a Silent Retreat — 10 days of letting You repack me!

Posted in accepting my ability to REDESIGN, being a Slow Learner, Changing, Good Friday, Rethinking

Palm Sunday and Holy Week

Palm Sunday at Trinity Church, Boston

Good Morning, God!

We are IN Holy Week, God, and I am so THANKFUL. I love my Central Union Church at home, God. But, I was raised an Episcopalian, so Holy Communion is so much more meaningful to me in the Episcopal Church.

Imagine the JOY of having “real” communion on Palm Sunday!  And this was a very special Palm Sunday service, God, as it purposefully anticipated Good Friday.

After the communion 4 young people carried a large wooden cross — in silence — up to the communion area and after standing for several minutes they laid it on the floor. Then the congregation could choose to leave — or to go up and leave our palm branches resting against the cross — a powerfully symbolic act.

But, perhaps, the most moving part of the service was the First Reading — a quote from Archbishop Oscar Romero, martyr. “The church, entrusted with the earth’s glory, believes that in each person is the Creator’s image and that everyone who tramples it offends God. . . . Whoever tortures a human being, whoever abuses a human being, whoever outrages a human being abuses God’s image, and the church takes as its own that cross, that martyrdom.” (from The Violence of Love.)

Oh, God, it is so easy to understand how he was shot and killed. Those who were responsible for the torture and killing of so many — could not bear the pain of sitting in church and hearing Your Truth. Surely, if those who do a “kindness” to the poor do it to Jesus — so too, those who do a “harm” to the poor do it to Jesus.  Aiee! Let us all HEAR THOSE WORDS! Begin with me, God!

Posted in Compassion, courage, Holy Week, LOVE, Palm Sunday, Peace

Into God’s Courts with Praise!

Just off the plane -- Kit and Sandy

Good morning, God!

Here we are in Tucson Visiting with Family — and RESTING! And Thankful!

Do You ever find thankfulness boring? Hmmm. It feels as if You are saying THANKFULNESS is just the Gate — Come into my Courts WITH PRAISE.

Yes! That is what the Psalms say! I keep forgetting that PRAISE is so key. Maybe because I am not comfortable with praise? Affirmations, YES!  But, praise seems what one does to a child  — when we praise a Superior it congers up “Kissing Up” and flattering.

Suddenly, it is as if I stand on the THRESHOLD of SPACE — standing here in my small portion of Time and Space — and all I can “see” are stars and galaxies and COLORS and LIGHT! AWE! GLORY!

And I take a step back into my “reality” — surely, God, we cannot see Your Face and Live! But, if we but “see” the Heavens — we see Your GLORY! And what possible response is there other than PRAISE!

Oh, well, yes. There is THAT. We can “Turn Away” and ignore That Threshold — The Heaven that are on “The Other Side.”  And, do I “hear” You say “That is what Death is about — to help us Turn Toward You?”

Gosh, God, this is so far from where I “started out to go.”  I was so immersed in HERE AND NOW that I forgot Our Context! I begin to understand that Thankfulness is mostly about here and now.

But, it IS also A GATEWAY. There is always an opportunity to Turn Toward You and Your Awesome MORE. Stepping into that “more” is to enter into Your Courts WITH PRAISE. Praise YOU, oh GOD. PRAISE YOU!!!

Posted in Praise, thankfulness, Thanksgiving!, the essential nature of hope, The Flow of God's Love

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