Good Day, God!
It has come to me that my purpose and meaning have come from WORK for so long that a FULL DAY WITHOUT WORK leaves me feeling rudderless and listless. Yeah, I do sort of realize that is withdrawal from adrenaline — kind of — mostly — well, ALMOST realize that.
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Really? Do You mean to say that my six days of BUSY are like six days on adrenaline? My own internal version of SPEED? I really don’t like knowing this. Please help me God to ponder this. When I was sitting in Centering Prayer I realized that I can’t SEE what is going on inside me. When YOU work in me — when I sit giving You permission to work in me — I often feel aimless. I am addicted to being productive.
YIKES! Well, I guess it is better than other addictions — but, maybe not. If it were drugs, I’d KNOW I needed to kick the habit. Shoot! I really LIKE / LOVE being productive. It is such an easy way to confirm my existence. I love feeling USEFUL.
You say, You are offering me A NEW KIND OF USEFUL! And I should PAY ATTENTION! I should. But I am going to bed.
Well, I am BACK, God. And VERY aware that the Sabbath Day of Rest is the AXIS on which the other SIX Days TURN. I have a WHY to keep the Sabbath. But my HOW is wobbly. I can see it involves STOPPING even if I am not done. I can see that my six other days need limits and boundaries.
NOW I hear that small small nudge . . . seeing isn’t FEELING. I won’t change until I FEEL the need. FEEL COMPASSION AND LOVE FOR MYSELF — AS A NEEDY PERSON.
OUCH! O.K. God, here is a NEW DAY — one of the six to BALANCE caring for myself and others. You WANT to help me. THANK YOU MOST LOVING GOD!
Story teller,
A Moment with God 
Dear God, It would appear that I need the same push to stop and breath also.I need a lot of prayer to put my computer down and fix up home after the air conditioner mess ends.
I do hope God that choosing to go to Istanbul was the right thing and that I was listening to your advice.
God thank you for katherine