Charging Elephants and small snakelike fears

Posted on February 26, 2010 by a moment with god — Leave a comment

Elephant charging our Land Rover in Swaziland

Good Morning, God.

When this elephant charged our Land Rover I was TERRIFIED! I was sitting in the back — therefore the CLOSEST. There were 2 or 3 seconds in which he was gaining on us — LONG SECONDS — then we pulled away.

Fear like that is easy to identify. You know it. And after it’s over there is almost hysterical relief. Once we were safe we laughed and laughed.

But a couple of years ago, God, You began to show me that there were HIDDEN FEARS in my life. Fears I wasn’t conscious of.

I remember asking You, God, HOW am I supposed to find them WHEN THEY ARE HIDDEN? You suggested I write down all the things I THOUGHT I WANTED TO DO, BUT HADN’T DONE — then pray about what FEAR might be holding me back.

There at the top was LOOSING WEIGHT! I thought, WHAT’S SCARY ABOUT THAT! But I did pray — and You revealed my fear of being different. Because to CHANGE what I ate — to avoid grains — would make me different. Now, God! You MADE us DIFFERENT. I THINK I like being different.

But, as I sat and prayed, I could feel the deep childhood fear of being odd — an outcast – different and ejected from the “group.” It was an OLD DEEP HIDDEN FEAR — and it IS STILL POWERFUL!

But becoming AWARE of it — helped me to PRAY about it — to LAUGH about it. And, I lost weight. NOW I hear You telling me — GO BACK TO THE LIST! Let’s FIND THE NEXT CLUMP OF SMALL SNAKELIKE FEARS HIDING UNDER THE ROCK OF CONSCIOUSNESS — ENTANGLING FEARS!

You really do WANT TO SET ME FREE – ALL OF US FREE! Thank YOU — THANK You.