Gold stars and Your Love, New Every Morning

Posted on February 3, 2010 by a moment with god — 1 Comment

Morning sky over Hawaii Kai. Photo by Pulelehua Quirk

It’s a new day, God! Thank You! Still dark but look at this glorious photo of the morning sky — sent to me yesterday. I love clouds — especially when the sun or moon is shining through. It’s a beautiful world, God. Thank You!

I liked yesterday. Fasting for two meals isn’t hard — maybe not hard enough? Although as it got closer to dinnertime it did get hard enough for me to really think about the people I was doing it for.

I did do some work with my large calendar. I gave myself various colored stars for the days when I did what I want to do more of — feeling slightly like an eight year old — but pleased in spite of that. And I worked on German. That really felt good as learning languages is very hard for me — impossible. I have an old trauma connected with it. But I feel as if You are willing to help me heal.

Notice that I said FEEL. I know — up in my mind — that you want to heal all of me, indeed all of us. But with longstanding traumas or injuries I feel helpless. Helpless. Gosh, that takes me back to a conversation last week about my being terrible about asking for help. I DID ask a friend to help me with German by reading off a list of words into my iPod. Hmmm. I think I’d better give myself a star every time I ask for help! Maybe blue? (It’s the only one of the five colors I haven’t yet assigned.) And, come to think of it, I’d better add myself to the list of people I’m fasting for! DUH! I mean, that’s allowed? ENCOURAGED, EVEN!