Victorian Gardens, Famines and White Flour Lives


flowers in profusion at Kylemoor Abbey's Victorian Garden

Thank You, God, for our being on this trip!

Thank You that the volcano’s cloud is no longer stopping planes — and, yes, it would be wonderful if we don’t see a repeat of that Power of Nature Exhibit.

I suppose that I like Nature best in this profusion of flowers! And I rather like the jumble effect as opposed to the trimmed and tidy ovals of the Victorian Garden. Perhaps that comes from having loved the Secret Garden as a child.

Cover of the Secret Garden illustrated by Tasha Tudor

The garden was surely part of the charm of that book — a Victorian Book — but so was the wisdom of Dicken and his mother — and so was the transformation of Mary and Colin. Hmmm. Colin was healed by fresh air, exercise, and nature.  I can’t remember if real food was involved, too. I know real food was part of the healing power of being outdoors in the fresh air in the book Heidi. Odd, God, how we don’t notice how these stories from childhood shape our lives.

I am right now feeling as if I need a “fresh air, real food and exercise” cure! Not that I am “sick” but I am feeling the effects of flying and riding and eating too much — in short — Modern Life — or should I say the “White Flour” life?

Mind You, God, after driving through Connemara (above Galway in Ireland) — and seeing the small plots of land and wee stone cottages that had to feed and house 10 to 15 people — I don’t want to go back to that sort of life. Hmmm. The famine of the 1840s was about the blight that destroyed the potatoes — a 4-5 year blight that came shortly after the herring stopped coming. The hungry people couldn’t hunt or fish for fresh water fish as they were only renting that land and had no “right” to the game. And with so many mouths to feed on very little land the potato was the only plant that could produce enough calories. To have it fail, was disaster.

Nature play her part — but so did a grievously unfair economic structure with absentee landlords who had contempt for their tenants. Sigh. While people starved and died on the side of the road, Ireland was exporting food.

It was greed back then, too. How easy it is to see “wrongs” looking back in time — how hard it is to see what is under our noses.  Ah, God. Help me look. Help me begin by the simple step of watching myself — watching what I eat — watching what I feed my mind — watching what I think. With Your Help –That will be a beginning.

Posted in a prayer for healing, accepting my need for help, asking for help for myself, Balancing and adjustments, becoming the change I wish to see, Rethinking, The difficulty of changing

Solar Power — and the Power of Hearing Ourselves

a color enhanced image of our Sun from the solar satellite

Ah, God!

It’s EARTH DAY and somehow it seems right to feature an image of our Sun — massively switching to solar power would certainly be a gift to our Earth.

Kit and I were flying from Dublin to Shannon today and talking about how it had just been a bit over 100 years since the FIRST air flight. Amazing all that has happened in air transportation and then we thought about iPhones and iPads — Kindles and Nooks and audiobooks and far far more. It feels like accelerating acceleration. It that a j curve or a hockey stick curve?

Of course, we feel that more than our grandsons! Goodness, God. All this twittering and texting and connecting.

What then of  that lovely Anne Lamott essay this morning sent by Mary M. from the April Sunset Magazine? In the article she talks on the need to make time for creating or just meandering in nature. She says: . . . the good news is that creative expression, whether that means writing, dancing, bird-watching, or cooking, can give a person almost everything that he or she has been searching for:  enlivenment, peace, meaning, and the incalculable wealth of time spent quietly in beauty. Then she says that the BAD NEWS is that we have to MAKE TIME to do that.

Yes, God, I hear You! That means to MAKE CHOICES and not just drift into surface activities and connections. It means to truly HEAR others. AND YES!!!  It means to HEAR MYSELF! It means to hold open a sacred space for You — or maybe for hidden and forbidden Portions of Ourselves.

Our Culture has shut off a goodly portion of ourselves. It has pruned and trimmed us — especially we females — into bonsai plants — managing to eek out a life with roots bound in the toxic copper wires of expectations. My MY! Do I really believe that? And, if I do? What then, God? What then?

Ah, we will HOLD OPEN times of silence — we will listen lovingly — we will sit in Your Compassionate Presence! Yes! WITH YOUR HELP!


Posted in a surfeit of sound and stuff, afraid of quiet?, an invitation to abundant life, becoming the change I wish to see, being heard into speaking, being together in a compassionate presence, hearing myself

Moon jellies and me

Moon jellies in a small tank at the Cape Cod Natural History Museum

Good Morning God!

I must say, I feel rather like these creatures — gently moving up and down and over — no real sense of direction. It is quite lovely, actually. These creatures are not rushing,

Now, this morning we are off soon to the bus stop and then the airport and then to Dublin and then Shannon and then the tour . . . or so they tell us.

You know, God, I am intending to float like these jellies — please help me relax and do that.

Actually, my BIG prayer request is please help Kit relax — right now he is on hold with Aerlingus to confirm their call last night confirming our flight today instead of tomorrow. Thanks, God! It was my turn to call and after one wrong number we figured out the right one and got to the person who had been calling US! A MIRACLE! Indeed, the fact that we are going at all, seems to me a miracle!

So, God, bless this dear woman who is now / HAS now gotten us a connecting flight from Dublin to Shannon. And bless us as we FLOAT ON!

Posted in accepting my need for help, asking for help for myself, embedded in God's Time, gratitude, thankfulness

Going? Staying? In Your Hands!

Eyjafjallajökull volcano

Good Morning God!

Go? Or No Go? I feel like I am in some sort of Game Show. At the moment we are No Go for today, Wednesday — and Go for Friday. At that point we would have to get ourselves to Killarney from Dublin to meet the Grand Circle tour. Kit is ADVENTUROUS — more so than I am. But, this is His Marathon and His Trip! I am happy to go along.

Ah, but God, I am TRUSTING You in all of this. You say, no, I seem to be trusting Kit?  Hmmm. Well, not so much “trusting” as going with Kit. It is true that left to my own devices I would be spending a bit of time here in Cape Cod visiting Lucy and then go home — or off to see our family. But then, I am not the one with the Traveling Gene.

One small volcano in Iceland — imagine that, God — and all of Europe is held hostage. We are amazingly interconnected — and it appears, dependent on AIR TRAVEL!  Gosh, what would happen to the economy of Hawaii if we were covered by a high cloud of glass particles? It makes me think. Actually, it scares me into NOT THINKING. I suspect that most people find thinking far too scary to do it as we should. It makes me think of Walter. Walter is on the board of Lucy’s condo association and he obtained permits to resand their shore BEFORE the storms came and tore away the sand. BEFORE the problem came, he had thought about it and prepared for it — even to obtaining permit which can take a year to get.

Ah, now God, where are the Walters in Congress? Where are the Walters in our state governments.  In fact, it comes to me — WHERE IS THE WALTER IN ME???? Now there is a question for me to ponder, because, OF COURSE, there IS a Walter inside of me — longing to get OUT!!!!  And, God, the Aer Lingus people just called and we can now fly into Shannon — putting us much closer to Killarney. THANK YOU!

And, please God, could you help me find and release and cherish that Walter part deep inside me?

Posted in asking for help for myself, authority over my life, thankfulness

GRATITUDE!

a flowering tree on the marathon course

THANK YOU!  Thank YOU, God!

I am so GRATEFUL! Gratitude overflows! First that Kit is alive and well after the extraordinary endurance event of a marathon! Yes, God, I am always aware that sometimes very fit and able runners DIE during a marathon. Although, ever since I learned that Phidippides — the first one to run that distance — had been fighting all day in heavy armor before running and dropping dead — I have felt less nervous.

I’m also grateful that Kit was third in his age group! He is competitive! And I know he would have felt down if he had been fourth. Smile!

But far more that that — I am grateful for all the wonderful people we have met. People like Joan who made the trip up to root for Kit as her way of saying Thank You to him for fund raising in honor of her. People like their friends, the Nathans, who drove us around and felt like OUR friends. People like the young (40’s) runner — eating next to us –who had his picture taken with Kit

And, God, thank You for the blossoms of Spring! Thank YOU for the cycle of seasons — for the fact that Spring does follow Winter — not like the Perpetual Winter of the Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe.  That makes me think of how Very Thankful I am for the Resurrection Promise — a very personalized story of hope and love. I guess, God, that I am NOT a philosopher. For me MEANING is best captured and conveyed by STORY! THANK YOU!!! Thank You for EVERYTHING.

Posted in appreciation, blooming, connections, gratitude, Spring and Resurrection, thankfulness, Thanksgiving!

Kit and the Boston Marathon

Kit leaving for the buses to take him to the start

Good Morning God!

Please take especially good care of my marvelous husband! Here he is bundled up and about to leave our room in the hotel to walk to the bus pickup place. He left at 7:00 a.m. EDT and I guess it takes the buses a bit less than an hour to get to Hopkinton. There he will wait at the “Hawaii House” with other runners from Hawaii. Bless that man, God, who opens his home each year! At 10:30 Kit will start the race with the second wave.

BLESS KIT!  Give him a GOOD RUN! Please, God! And please give him good people to sit next to on the bus and to smooze with on the run. Lighten his heart — lighten his steps — may the wind be at his back!

Ever since Suz and I saw Kit at mile 26 in the LA Marathon — in which he won his age group — I have had FAR MORE APPRECIATION OF HIS GRIT! Grit doesn’t get much glory, God.  But it SHOULD! When I saw Kit running — well, putting one foot in front of the other — I wanted to yell WALK!

Ah, but Suz swelled with pride and said LOOK AT DAD! HE’S GIVING IT ALL HE’S GOT! That was when I knew that the two of them had GRIT! Sandy has it too!  She finished her marathon 2 years ago with both knees wrapped in ice.

And me? As I like to say — my relatives waited for the train before they came West — no covered wagons for them. Still and all, even if I’m a wimp, I ADMIRE KIT! BLESS HIM, God!  Keep him SAFE, Please! And bless and keep all the runners safe.

Kit is running for Joan — his honored teammate — wife of his classmate and band friend, Peter. Bless Joan, too! God, a special gift of healing for Joan today, please. She and Peter are coming with friends to watch the run. May I find them easily — and may we see Kit as he runs by!

The sky is blue and the temperature in the 40’s with the high maybe 59 today. No rain, thank YOU, God. Now, please one last thing — ease my nervousness — take good care of my beloved husband!

Posted in a prayer for healing, grit, Running the Boston Marathon, Trusting God

We have Chandeliers while The Heavens Declare the Glory of God

chandelier at the Copley Plaza, Boston

Good Morning, God!

Chandeliers are lovely things and they were, in days gone by — a symbol of wealth. Symbols of Wealth. Hmmm. How does a wealthy person SHOW that he or she is wealthy? And WHY would a person of wealth WANT to show it off?

Is Hawaii the only place where an older man shopping in Longs and wearing shorts and flip-flop rubber sandals MAY or MAY NOT be wealthy? Now that I think about it, Aloha shirts are also designed to “join in” as opposed to “stand out.”

Might Hawaii be the Wave of the Future? Now, THAT, God is a hopeful plea! May it be so!

Power, status, wealth — in the Western World they went together — it took a lot of money to buy power (armies) which could be used to obtain status. Or conversely, status and power could be used to obtain wealth. And, if you had it — you wanted everyone to know it. Hmmm. In England the aristocracy had wealth based on land — and the industrial revolution was designed to create wealth from business and trade — occupations considered “beneath” the ruling class. So then, money couldn’t be “worked” for — but it could be “married” for. Oh my. Oh my . . .

So, back to chandeliers — what do we humans DO with what we have? We can use it for Beauty – use it to Join In – use it to Stand Out – use it for Status Ranking – use it for Security. But, then I think — it isn’t that simple, is it God. It isn’t simple for humans as individuals — and it gets far more complex as we join together.

Complex, yes — but surely You have made it clear — that we are to Remember that WE were SLAVES in Egypt. We are to remember that as we do it unto the “least” of these our brothers and sisters — WE DO IT UNTO YOU!

That sort of restores the balance, doesn’t it, God. You with your Sun and Moon and Stars — and we with our chandeliers.

Posted in a matter of scale, Balancing and adjustments, beauty, Light, Our lights vs Your light, Perspective

Sleep, Grumpy Bears and Borrowing from the Body’s Bank

The Fairmont Copley Plaza Hotel -- Boston Marathon Headquarters

Good Day, God!

Yesterday afternoon we flew off for Boston — with a change of planes in Chicago. It is after dinner here now in Boston — but my dear body has NO IDEA what TIME IT IS! Well, it’s BED TIME!

After we arrived at our hotel we tried to get breakfast but we were 30 minutes late. So we walked out to locate FOOD!  (I am the driving force, God, for food. Kit is a true Spartan or Non Materialist.) Not much open as we are between Chinatown and the Theater District. But we got directions to the marathon headquarters hotel (Copley Plaza) and started off. I briefly considered a Burrito Palace — but we hurried on.

The Oak Room

We arrived having again missed breakfast — this time by 15 minutes — but only had  to wait 15 minutes for lunch. Lunch in the Oak Room! LOVELY! No pasta on the menu but when I asked — explaining about Kit’s running — our waiter Kenny shook Kit’s hand and said he wanted to grow up to be like him. So he went to ask about pasta and they set to preparing linguini for Kit — apologizing it would take a few minutes.

We walked back to our hotel where we were able to check in — and I took off my shoes and fleece — forgot about my scarf — and went to sleep. AND I SLEPT!

I had been up late — working on getting assorted things DONE — for several days before we left. I had BORROWED from my Body’s Bank of Reserves. NOW THE BANK WANTED TO BE REPAID! So I just kept on sleeping. At one point Kit suggested we walk down to Boyleston Street to the restaurant section for dinner. I laughed and laughed and laughed and returned to sleep. Kit thought it was a “sick” laugh, but it was a NOT A CHANCE, laugh!

Thank You, God, that I can BORROW AGAINST THE BANK. I’m tempted to think of it as a FEMALE GIFT but I’m pretty it is an individualized gift. The only trouble with it is that our bodies can’t give us an exact accounting of how much we owe. And when we are on OVERDRAFT TOO LONG, it is hard to get out of debt. I wonder, God, if a lot of illnesses are just the Body’s way of COLLECTING what is owed?

Well, I did wake up and we had a delicious dinner in the hotel. Thank You God for my return to Good Spirits! And now I’m back to burrow into bed! I want to pay back my loan!

Posted in Borrowing from the Body's Bank, Cherishing our Bodies, compassion to care for myself, Needed Repair Time, recovery time

Seeing, Speaking and the “Stories” we live in

Brachiosaurus Dinosaur at OHare Airport

Good Morning God!

Here we are in Ohare — normally I wouldn’t have paid to connect but our plane arrived over an hour early so the cost per hour isn’t too bad!

On the walk to our terminal Kit put his bag down right next to the dinosaur’s rear foot — and as I commented on how I’d never stood underneath it before — Kit looked up and confessed he hadn’t seen it.

Proving once again that we each live in separate universes — smile. It is all about focus and interest, isn’t it, God. I often confess to Kit that NO, I don’t remember being in that ball park — or no I don’t remember who won the World Series. Ah, but how lovely to have intersecting Universes.

The Brachiosaurus certainly provides an unexpected intersection with another universe. Not totally unexpected as we’ve been here before. But I hadn’t thought to look for her.

O'hare neon display between B and C concourses

Now, the neon display between concourse B and C — that I did look forward to.

It is funny what the mind remembers — what we see and don’t see.

That is sure true of “history”, God. The old adage is that it is written by the “winners.” But the “losers” tell and retell their story, too. And who can blame them. We are going to Ireland after the Boston Marathon — now there is a place where TWO STORIES have not intersected but clashed.

How can it be that “reality” can be so different, God? How is it that some people really don’t “see” the dinosaur even when it is pointed out.

Ireland and Palestine are extreme examples of Clashing Universes. But it happens all over the world — in ways large and small. It takes time and energy to step out of our normal way of seeing. And a person who does that — and then speaks about it — can face concerted pressure to return to silence.

Ah, God. Help us to SEE and then help us to SPEAK! Silence is not good for our health — not individually nor communally.

Posted in Expand my Heart, Haves and Have Nots, Help me to see, stopping to see, taking time to focus, The difficulty of changing, Uncategorized

Carp, God’s Light and Praying for Enemies

Look! One of the fish is being prayed for! Carp in pool at the Ihilani.

Good Morning, God!

I love doing this blog!  I love picking out photos. When I selected this one, I had no idea what the caption would be. But, it just came to me so clearly! When we pray for someone we help focus Your Light upon them.

I remember Rev. Marge Terpstra saying that when we pray for someone — we can ask You God to surround them with Light. I forget exactly how that came up. Might it have been because I was inclined to pray that You would FIX people, God? When we pray for people we love it is easy to pray for them to be surrounded by Your Light — Your Golden Healing Light.

However, when we are embarked on the difficult work of praying for someone we feel has wronged us — or harmed someone dear to us — it is so tempting to pray for them to SEE THE LIGHT AND REPENT.

I’m sitting here, smiling ruefully. What came to mind when I wrote the phrase SEE THE LIGHT was the image of an interrogation room with a bright light shining in the face of the accused — rubber hose at the ready.  Sigh. That’s what’s in MY heart, God — not in Your Heart.

I just started a book called Jewish Pirates of the Caribbean — no, it’s not a joke book by Mel Brooks — it is well researched book about Jews who fled the Inquisition back in the 1600’s. I didn’t know that the Inquisition was also active in the New World. The Inquisition was so Evil — and to think that they did it in Your Name, God!  Please forgive us!

We humans seem inclined to “force” people into “right relationship” with You. Mind You, a somewhat assertive prayer isn’t as bad as the Inquisition that tortured men’s bodies — then burned them alive — to “save their souls” (and incidentally confiscate their property).

But, I take Your Point God! You command us to Pray for our Enemies! And You tell us that if they are thirsty GIVE THEM A DRINK — if they are hungry FEED THEM. Somehow, I am pretty sure You would want us to HEAR THEM, too.  Help us, God . . . Please, HELP US! EXPAND OUR HEARTS!

Posted in being a Slow Learner, Expand my Heart, God's Light, Light, listening, Prayer, Praying for our enemies, the Light of the World

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